Ayn's Multiple World

Whoops forgot to post Sunday ...

Good morning. This is me again. Don’t worry, we probably won’t write as much today. Yesterday, I think we had the writing bug. We didn’t want to stop for nothing. Today, it’s already 5:30 am and Sweetie Pie might be home for the day.

His mother though cracked a rib and so he might go there. He’s not sure yet, because the mother may not feel as she needs visitors. It’s hard to tell. I hope actually that he goes in, because if I were in her situation, I think I would like Rich to come over. Maybe he should make some chicken soup and bring it to her?

That would be a good idea I think. She is at home and up and around, but we’re guessing that it’s slow and it hurts. I think it hurts Rich when she’s hurt because he doesn’t want his mother to be hurt. That’s the kind of person fishy face is. Gotta love him for it.

Our love came home tired last night, but I could tell he had a lot of fun. He called a couple hours before he came home to tell me it would be a couple hours because they were going out to dinner. I could hear Bob in the backroom talking to me. He was saying that we should go out and that Rich won’t let him come over for dinner and stuff like that – oh yeah, he was saying that Rich didn’t catch any fish. Hehehe he was being pretty silly. I was like tell him this, tell him that.

Every little tiny connection that is made is gold. Can’t help but to like Bob.

They didn’t have a lot of luck – well, Bob caught three bass, but later they went fishying for blue gill. I guess it’s a smaller fish and in abundance - like sunfish. We used to catch sunfish when we were kids. On the phone he said that they were like a couple of 9 year olds. I later heard they were throwing fish at each other, but that can't be true? Oh man God Bless them! Anything that makes Sweeties life more enjoyable is good with me. It seems like the two have been so competitive all summer … oh I know I went into that yesterday, but for the record, I’m very happy that the two are able to play. They were both so lighthearted. I would have wanted to be the fishyboat – it would be up to it to make sure the two juveniles wouldn’t fall in, but could feel them rolling about.

Rich woke us up when he came home at 9 – wow! That was a long day. He spent 15 hours with Bob. That’s a good share, but as is practice he woke us up. Sometimes it is long enough only to get smooched and he tells us to go back to sleep, but this time we wanted to watch a show with him. Law and Order Special Victims had a show on multiplicity. But, it wasn’t a good one because they had two sisters that were abused acting out because of their father being abusive and the mother just watching it. So, they used the facts – like explaining how multiples get to be multiples, but they had at the end that the multiple was faking it to get by with murder. At the end, because of double indemnity or something like that they couldn’t nail her, but the sister went back to prison. It wasn’t very good acting as to what multiples were really like, but Rich said that they only had a short time to imply the character. It was very disappointing.

That is the general reaction to watching multiples on TVs … people don’t really know what it is like and never like meeting the reality part. One of us asked Rich a question about multiplicity that I don’t have direct answer to yet, but it had something I think to do with whether we were real. It was a confusing couple of minutes. I don’t know … Rich says we’re real … it be a long time to “fake” cause its been almost 18 years now. There was that period where we were making the movies. I’m not sure what happened to make us stop doing that, but even then we had little sense of the switching, because we’d switch with the video. I think if I were a regular person, I would think though that we were too strange to know just on the concept of it all. I’m not sure … maybe we can come back to this later because it is too confusing.

There is this side thought that … if we act particularly strange for regular people and this writing gets published some day, you might be able to see if we seem stranger than whatever. We just see one long page and don’t as easily see the disruption of thoughts or personalities. Right now we’re having trouble because sir kitty has been sleeping on my left wrist and its kind of fallen asleep AND he’s playing with my pen.

There we just got done hehehe. He was being silly we usually chase him around with it a bit while being up here on the table and we end up petting him with the pen.

Because of the silver clip on thing we collect a lot of hair, especially at this time of the year. We get the white downy stuff. I think that’s why he plays pen – so he can get rid of some of those itchy soft hairs. But, then we got to get rid of them. Hmm, did I mention that it is about time there’s some vacuuming done?

Yesterday turned out to be a nice day. We watched the show in Rich’s room and he got frontsies, which means that we do the massaging *Sigh.* There might have been playing around after that, but I’m not saying …. Whistle, whistle, whistle …
Ok you that’s enough of that!

We had a glorious time with one of our Granddaughters. Maury didn’t seem to be in a good place and Ame was either out with friends or consumed in TV. I didn’t take that to be a good sign either, but Isa was ready for company. We just played and played. She’s such a doll. For a while we were playing dinosaur game. She had a dinosaur that if you squished it right it would play music, so she brought it to me for squishing, and then she went into the center of the living room and danced by doing circles and circles and raising him up and down. At one point she was holding both of his hands with her hands as if he were twirling her … it was so grand. We introduced a new part of the game trying to slow her down where the dinosaur had to sleep … later Ame came in and said that he doesn’t snore. And, we said … see though he is snoring now! We were trying to teach Isa how to play snore. She studied our mouth and tried to imitate it going in and out. Oh man she’s so fascinating.

We asked Maury about that soon on – the part where she is imitating everything … he said, yes she does that hehehe. She know words too. I can hear clearly her saying “Grama” so we practiced that … and she could point to her nose, hair, eyes, mouth, feet and what the family calls their “blueberry button.” You know the one in the middle of your tummy! She knows shoes too – she pointed to them on the table and then later she had them to put on, but by then she was headed for bed. That just gave her grief. I felt so bad because as she was sobbing, she was making those hand/arm signals that said, “Grama, grama, come get me!” Man does that hurt. But, Maury had her lay down for awhile and then he got her and she was more just cuddly and tired instead of being way overwhelmed. I think she was just tired and pretty wound-up. Umm, we might have helped with that situation. Hmm, “How many circles did the girl do?” Maybe a record!

Maury served a very good dinner, but he wasn’t happy with the way the meat came out … I wasn’t watching the meat as much as I was watching him and how he dealt with it … it was pressing on him. Later he invited me down to watch a television show with him. I hadn’t seen it before – let me think – ahh I know … it was called, “Office.” Everyone else in the world probably know of it … we laughed throughout it with him. We sat together on the same loveseat and it just seemed like him and me and I could tell that the show helped him deal with his more confused and tired emotions …. Or at least it gave him an opportunity to not think so directly of them. He didn’t want to talk about it so we tried not to press. He said that he was happy that we were there … and that was enough for us. I know he’s going through a tough time – that work is pretty good, but he’s got a lot of worrying he’s doing. I think Maury’s biggest pressure on life is that he could not be with his girls. But, at that we’ll go on to another topic. This one is too hard … and we can’t worry about the other as much as we worry about him. I think he’s our son and we get to do that, cause we know he’s hurting. And, as mentioned before … well at least similarly … mom’s don’t like to see their son’s hurting. The only thing he said about his situation is that “marriage is hard.” We agreed.

Listenging to Stand by me by Ben E. King. That’s about all you can do … stand by him. He’s also got other family members that care … I don’t know how many feelings his father has, but I know that in his way he’s there for Maury too. But, mom’s are mom … and I love him dearly.

Ok, you … we’re not going there remember? Gotta be moving on … cause we’re not supposed to be talking about Maury. Just one undescript paragraph  that’s an unhappy face. *Sigh* Umm change?!??

Yes ma’am.

So … good coffee. Uh-huh. Maybe you should think of taking your medicine? It’s 6:30? I know, I know … in a little bit. Umm, better do it now? *Big deep breath* Ok, ok … we’re going. Sure be nice to sneak a squishy face kiss though, wouldn’t it? Umm, medicine … yes ma’am … going.

AHA! We’re back. It’s now 8:40. I can’t believe we’ve been away from the computer for over 2 hours. Wow! Time slides by fast when you’re having fun. We ended up laying down with our Sweetie Pie. We just rubbed him gently and he slept for about a half hour, but then Bob called … Rich listened to the message, but then fell back to that soft spot where he was just getting rubbed. Bob wanted to tell him something about putting something in Rich’s cooler, which is still in his car. I think Bob misses Rich cuz it’s more like a friend thing to do than a message message. You just naturally want to talk to your buddy first thing in the morning.

I wish Rich wouldn’t put him off, but I don’t think he’s up for socializing that early in the morning. I think eventually we woke up proper … and I remember somebody stealing someone’s covers for a while. That wasn’t nice was it? *Sigh*
I think we both made it to the living room about 7:30 am. We talked lightly for a half hour before his Sunday morning show came on … we both watched that for about a half hour talking a few minutes back and forth about the news stories. One feature was about twins being separated at birth, and another was on the lucrative life of Gene Autry. But, by then I decided it was really time to be getting back to my computer and writing. I put on the ear phones just as Sweetie was coming out of the kitchen … just as we figured he said, “ahh, trying to distance us already,” or something close to that.

He is probably right in that the morning shows are something that we can be doing together. We just finished the morning show where the last minute they let you be somewhere soft and interesting. I had stopped talking again and listened with him about people who gather in the desert for “Burning Man.” Those kind of things are interesting to me too and it does make me excited that squishyman and us have similar interests. Like shoot, what would I do if he liked something odd. Well, maybe but I don’t know … probably I’d start to like odd things too. That is how relationships work. People grow into the same culture that they create together.

God Bless’m

He’s off doing his constitutional now … probably shouldn’t say that, because someday he is going to shoot me for my free expose on his life and times. But, for now we’re good. I think he’s going to keep loving me though.

He mentioned not moving for a year yet, but waiting for Mike to find out if there’s anything on the first floor. He’s like us where we’re both a little concerned over losing the third floor views. But, then he decided we could save $60 a month by doing the clothes ourselves. He’s had the same two piles near the couch … umm really close … ok, on top MY couch for the last hour. Actually, I think there is some history there after all the years we would call to find that he was folding his socks. I think laundry Sunday morning is built into him. Maybe it’s one of our first traditions, hmm?

I also introduced the topic of the stomach surgery. He gave me a double take and said absolutely not … well, ok, good we got that over, now the real work comes in.

His first argument was over the success of Holly. I don’t think she got as far as she would like. She’s lost I think 100 then stagnated and maybe about 235. I think I would go for the surgery that is more comprehensive and final. I don’t like the idea that the stomach could expand out if forced – thing that has to be a difference between the band and other. I don’t know … if I were to do it I wouldn’t want to be going back the other direction. I have to do a lot more reading and understanding.

The next stage is to monitor Sweetie to see if he brings it up again, and then we need to talk to Dr. Marvin. He’ll understand better some medical things with it.

Hmm, we’re having some technical difficulties. My music screen was frozen, then I did the Windows Task Manager … oh good that went down finally, let me try rebooting it. Ahh there we go … just takes some patience. We’re wondering if we should make some more coffee … I think we both had a couple of cups so we’ll be down. Not sure which direction our Sweetie is going. We went as far as knowing that he was going to do clothes and vacuum the carpet … and that’s the last we heard. I think there was one other thing, but I don’t remember … Oh, I know we were going to watch the Bears game today too. Let’s see when that is on.

Ahh, Bears are up against Detroit. I don’t know what that is all about … But, I think Griese is in for Grossman who is taking a lot of heat from Chicago now … I think he throws away to many balls, but I know so little about football it’s silly.

AHA! Silly putty has walked out of the bathroom bracing his arms back in a muscle move … I think he still rules the planet. WooHOO!

I know this is probably silly, or maybe it’s a remnant of our age that people get more concerned about success in the bathroom. I think its funny that there is someone else that thinks about it. Now that we’ve spent half a year living together, we are still giggling. Wow 6 months! That’s pretty cool. I think we are doing fantastic, but there is a lotta life time left. Think it will go together though, because basically we really like each other a lot. I think second relationships are different too in that there isn’t the same worry over kids that there was back the first time. I would never think of doing it differently, because this direction has given me the kids and grandchildren that I love to pieces, but this is nice too where we only have to worry about the two of us. Even that laundry, cleaning, groceries has its own challenges … besides my physical – there is the part where both of us are having so much fun playing around that neither wants to take the time for it.

My guess though is that Sweetie Pie is going to stop relaxing and take out his computer, which means business to him. Hmm, I will have to ask him, I had sent him a couple of entries from the stuff over the weekend. He did acknowledge something that made me realize that he did read them, but now might be the time to ask him what he thought about them. I don’t know what it would be like to know your love is writing you into her life story. He’s brought the first load of clothes downstairs, I think he’s got dibs on the washer because he’s not here looking dejected from his plans. I think we’ll do our ounce of help by setting the timer and volunteering to switch loads in 45 minutes. We have to practice going down and being helpful. I think he has in mind doing two loads of clothes. He’s being funny … get me 5 dresses. Wow … that means there’s extra loads. Whoops he’s back. Let’s see bet he comes back in.

Wow! We’re back again. Sweetie Pie vacuumed the carpet good … you know where furniture is moved around and all. AND, he fixed the old black chair so the back is now officially off, so now we got like a rolling cushioned stool type thing for me to sit on when the fishyman is on my computer or when I’m here and showing him something. He went down to do the laundry again. I helped a little, but my best help is just watching and keeping out of his way. I also put an ice pack with an Ace bandage on my knee … as long as I’m just sitting here it works pretty good. We talked between him vacuuming about more stuff from yesterday with Maury. We’re still worried over him, but I won’t go into it cuz we’re not supposed to. *Sigh*
I didn’t tell Rich, but Maury said something about stopping in today … I don’t know if he was kidding. I know that if he did call and want to come over that Sweetie Pie would leave, but it might cause him to go over to his mothers, which wouldn’t be a bad thing. Maybe Maury would just need to get out of the house. Ame asked yesterday why they don’t come over here. We told her the truth as far as I see it.

Last time Maury was worried over what Isa might get into. I think Lauren would have to come home too, because now she is out camping overnight, unless Maury felt it was ok to bring the kids. I wouldn’t mind and it was a nice coincidence that the living floor is vacuumed. Maybe I should tell it to Rich so that he could make up a back-up plan. I think I just heard him – not sure we have the ear phones on. I would clean-up under the keyboard, because I think there is a coffee stain there and I could be guaranteed that Ame would like to use it.

Whoops we talked to him for a few moments … didn’t get to that part … he stated that he was going to do a third load of towels. I sure hope no one else was planning on using it. I’ve been setting my timer too so I make sure that everything is being done. If he got into something else then I would go down. I volunteered to do the last switch, but he said no that he had it. He might be in his bedroom cleaning up. Hmm, I would like to watch that.

posted by Ann Marie @ 10/02/2007 05:06:00 AM Comments: 0