Ayn's Multiple World

This was a pretty long Saturday

Good morning. This is me. We’re up and have been up for over 3 hours. It’s a Saturday morning about 9 am, and it looks beautiful out there. We’ve switched over to the netbook because it was our way of being online – sprawled out on the couch and watch fishy shows with him.

Rich is now in the shower and he’s going to be going pretty soon for the day. He has to leave within an hour for 3 ball games up northwest from here. Reminding you that he officiates baseball at this point of the year, and then he’s going to go out with the guys to do some poker playing. He’s warned me that he will probably need ALL KINDS of babying when he gets back … *sigh* Always something more to be doing that’s worthwhile and deserving!

WhoHoo naked fishyman just passed by! Ok, girls … settle it down … it could be a very long day!

I’m pretty optimistic about the day so far. I’m am just pleased to pieces with the new computer. I think God must have had this in mind when there was so much difficulty getting the more expensive computer. It was like a divine intervention was at play.

Yesterday we followed through and we brought the netbook into the Administration meeting with us. Sr. didn’t seem to mind at all and it was taken very well. Sr. even cleared off a space on her desk. I think she seemed a little interested in how quietly and effectively it was happening. Periodically, she’d look out and a few slight smiles were deposited. She commented later and being as pleased as punch with it myself, I couldn’t have been more enthused. The feeling is a part of a long-term goal in proficiency. I like the idea that I’ will be more and more able to collect, analyze and report on data.

It was like no effort in taking the notes, there were so many more notes taken because we are so much faster on computer than handwriting. I was able to type and pay attention at the same time since it’s so much an auto process to type and think at the same time.

I’d like to be able to go to all meetings with the ability to be this productive. I will try to coordinate all the computers so they transmit data between them well. Yesterday we did very well with utilizing OneNote at the meeting. I wasn’t worrying about turning pages or anything. And, I like the general organization of being able to balance things within sections like meetings, reports, tasks, and such. With the OneNote there is a very good system of being able to track down information, so it’s somewhat like the papertiger in being able to collect at will on items that are collected at various uniquely different circumstances. I think that we’ve been working on this level for a long time.

I would like to think that later today and part of tomorrow that we continue to work on projects like the one with CARF where we are adding data to the project. If I do not get blown away with its immensity or distracted with our other aims, we believe we would be doing something very awesome to a larger collective whole.

We know that at this stage of life, it is detrimental to our purposes to take down the goals of others whether they are to be making love with mushy face or tending to our Farmtown on Facebook. For whatever reasons these are equally in its own right also important to the system. Perhaps as in relaxation or play we spend so much time on the computer that it gives all our parts a place to add input. I have to admit with Farmtown we are very excited as a system to get back and harvest our fruit trees and hear the mooing, quacking and neighing that is occurring. I also know that a big part of that is like other things we are doing on Facebook giving us a sense of community and ability to support and be supportive

Hmm, we were gone now just for a bit … President Obama was giving an interview from France. He first spoke as to something he wrote about the G20 summit and then he took questions from the bigger broadcast channels, and then he took a few free comments from the general news community. I think he talked to someone from Australia and then a Balkan country. It amazes me like I’m thinking it must be amazing the world how easily he has stepped into his role and how intellectually he talks about stuff. This wasn’t something that happened with Bushy. Bush was all about defenses. Obama is relating to a world population without taking down America – asking the community how we can work better together to advance our joint priorities.

Not too much different in reality how multiple parts learn to work together.

Ahh that’s better … I just got the low battery warning, which is fair considering how much time the computer’s been in use since charging her from work. Ok, yes, we’re still in absolute glory with this new device. Can we add to that comment also how glad the kitties are for it. They still prefer undivided attention, but they’ve at least now wrestled us over to the couch so when they lay down with us their comfort level is much higher.

It’s a little more work getting up and down, especially since our makeshift desk is holding a coffee cup, phone and TV remote. We had a very sturdy piece of half inch chipboard left over from the days we had the same on bricks for our bookshelves. I think much of it got thrown away, but this one is a two foot long piece that was put in storage in the back closet. The computer directions was very specific in saying that the computer or adapter would get very hot and that it shouldn’t be rested on lap or other soft surface that could get burned. Not only is there the heat value, but as well soft surfaces spoil the probability of getting cool air into its venting system.

The machine runs very quiet and has a nice spring action on the keyboard. Sometimes keyboards can be noisy, but this one isn’t … so it is not disruptive to meetings.

You don’t hear a loud tap tapping like on my big computer. I remember doing the videos and hearing the sound. I surveyed myself yesterday in the meeting and I was pleased to be in such incognito.

Ok, moving on with the day. I think that Obama was calming to people and praising of other countries, but at the same time was pushing his agenda in getting support against the terrorists in Afghanistan and Pakistan. I think there was some give there in support by others especially in training, but I don’t think the numbers were huge, especially in comparison to what US has put out. I’m not sure if it’s because US is in such a leadership position or whether it is because US has some different kinds of values and fears, but one way or another things have really changed over with Obama. He can be supportive his country from which he is very proud of, but still emphasis the importance that he listen and learn because US is part of a whole, not better than others, while substantially important. With Bush you got that he was King.

Ok, that’s enough of that … I get to the point of thinking Bush and the frustration is just too high.

I think it’s been a day or two since I’ve written, or at least I don’t recall having done this last. I’m not sure what happened to me yesterday morning. Maybe I just slept in? Ahh I remember one thing. I think I was up and getting to the writing, but about 6:30 – 7:30 am I was able to talk to Thom through IM. His situation seems to be good. He’s still waiting for Alexis to go through her test, but seems to be doing good with her even though they are temporarily long distance. We had talked to her the other day – I think we’d noted. The major deal there was getting Thom’s mailing address.

By the way interrupting our interruption … we wanted to say that we have progressed the situation of getting Thom’s books to him. We had packed a box of the majority of them, but it wasn’t a box we wanted to send through the mail. So yesterday after getting home, we opened up the back end of the CR-V and opened up a couple of our US postal boxes. We had to do some juggling around of boxes, and eventually went with the smaller of the two boxes; because it seemed on both there were 20 pound weight categories. Since they were books – we didn’t want to outweigh the boxes.

We were able to put about a dozen books in each box. There is a little room in each that I wanted to be able to pack something very light and homelike. Something so he can feel some familiarity with life back here. The space is only about 3”x3”x7” so there’s not much to work with. I wish I had some kind of food. Maybe on the way to the post office we could stop by and get something from the 7-11. I don’t know if Thom does candy bars, but there must be something we could pack to appease his tummy while scanning the packages. I’m thinking also like those small packages of oatmeal or raison cookies by Archway. Thom’s never really gone big time into sweets though.

Maybe the better alternative is to give him some kind of chips. I’m pretty sure he has access to all that, but these would be already in his room and immediately available. Just something small - hmm, I’m not sure if chips though wouldn’t be crushed by the books more loose at the top of the box. Maybe we’re back to the candy bars. If he didn’t eat them he could at least share them with his peers?

Hmm, that’s another thing … maybe we could send him something healthier like granola bars or some kind of protein bars. That might be appreciated. Again I think he can get them there, but this would be from Mom and convenient.

I should put some kind of personal note in the packages too. I think there will be two ready to go out today, and then maybe one more sometime next week. I hope Thom is going to be very happy with the purchases.

Hmm, now that I’m thinking … I’m not sure if the post office didn’t close 11 minutes ago. It is now 11:11 am. I better check on that. Oh good … I got some time … the post office is open until 3 pm. Maybe it was just that mail went out earlier. I just remember when we used to mail Thom … ok maybe that’s not important.

Let’s set a plan then to be there an hour early, so take a shower an hour earlier of yet that. That will give me 1 ½ hours to type uninterrupted and to put together a package plan. Like the deal should be something like we have time to stop at the 7-11. We should also figure if we need anything else and how it will be that we get to the gym. We told Rich that we were going to try again today very seriously.

Hmm, I just thought of something else. We have something else to bring to the mail. We’ve got the certified letters.

Hmm, better leave a note on that too. Yesterday we got another certified letter from the attorney of Rich’s wife. They want under subpoena more information. She didn’t like that the birth certificate didn’t have parents on it, they wanted documents from the taxes, and they wanted more information on verifying my job and benefits of work.

I think this was very offensive. I was glad that we could talk to Dr. Marvin soon after. We had tried to talk to Rich, but he was under a lot of stress and having his own personal problems with the situation. It was one of those times we had to handle ourselves, but it seems to be taking a toll on our mental balance. It consumed most of the psychiatric hour.

I wrote a letter back to the attorney explaining our situation – one page – but, that it wasn’t something we could do to come up with a birth certificate when the county no longer gives that info for people over 18. I also stated that H&R Block didn’t keep the info they’d been looking for. I did send three documents from Sr. and my personal file to verify those requests.

Rich did talk to his attorney and the attorney had thought that we responded well enough the first time, but because I don’t have an attorney and he is not my attorney, he can’t advise me. He can say I did enough, but he couldn’t go to court and get me out of trouble for not sending documents.

I talked to Dr. Marvin

My boyfriend has been going through divorce for just over 2 years and his wife's attorney has just subpoenad me for all my financial records and is demanding birth certificates from my three sons - born 10 years and more before I ever met my boyfriend. I have been diagnosed with longstanding issues of multiple personalities, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety and severe depression. I've been suicidal since this process started over this last month. I've answered their questions and responded to their queries the best I can, but they keep pushing for more and more.

Is there someway I can make them stop. I don't want to loose the gain I've made over my own psychological states. I feel I'm being overwhelmed by her. Do I have any rights that will help protect me?

You can file a motion to quash the subpoena's based on their irrelevant nature to the pending divorce action and because they are intended to harass you, not lead to relevant information. The court has the power to quash subpoena's in order to save a party from undue embarrasment. Her attorney looking into your children's birth certificates has nothing to do with the divorce case and could be quashed based on that. It sounds like this attorney has gone off the tracks and is looking to place undue influence on him by sending these out.

According to ADA laws are they violating my rights? - I told them in the first letter I'm under a psychiatrist's care and that I wouldn't be able to handle needless pressure or duress from them.
This was the questions asked and answered by a legal service online … I don’t think they answered the second question, but maybe I’m confused by their system

The question was answered by a site called “Just Answer”

I also found a site for ADA Law in Chicago and as it happens is with UIC. They weren’t in today, but I left a message for them to call back on Monday. I really want to know if I have anything to protect me. Dbtca – law link

In the meantime the part of the response where the attorney stated that the birth certificate has nothing to do with their divorce and could be quashed with a motion is the most valuable thing I’ve heard so far. Dr. Marvin says that attorneys try to pressure people all the time by the subpoena. I think I am going to give him this last letter, but need to search out who can file a motion with the court.

The second attorney said and we responded, and then we got one last response. And, that was pretty good. So we’re stopping legal questions for the day 

Under the ADA you are entitled to reasonable accommodation required for you to be able to perform the duties of your employment. "Needless pressure and duress" is not a reasonable accommodation, thus it is not something an employer has to accommodate. Furthermore, under the ADA to get a reasonable accommodation you must have a qualified disability (which could be psychological) but a qualified disability is a PERMANENT disability that impairs a major life function. Thus, if you do not have a major life function inpairment or you problem is not permanent, then you are not entitled to coverage or protection under the ADA.

If you have a qualified disability, you need a letter from your doctor detailing your condition and specifically what accommodations you will require to perform your duites, but refraining from putting pressure on an employee is not a reasonable accommodation and even when an employee asks for a specific reasonable accommodation, the employer does not have to provide that specific accommodation and can provide any other reasonable accommodation they can show will assist the employee in performing their duties.

Sent back to them…

This was not a satisfactory answer. I had assumed that in answering the question you had responded with knowledge of the first question. I was not talking about disability based on a work situation I was talking about it in a legal situation. This is my original question and then the second one put to you.

First Question - that was given a satisfactory answer

My boyfriend has been going through divorce for just over 2 years and his wife's attorney has just subpoenad me for all my financial records and is demanding birth certificates from my three sons - born 10 years and more before I ever met my boyfriend. I have been diagnosed with longstanding issues of multiple personalities, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety and severe depression. I've been suicidal since this process started over this last month. I've answered their questions and responded to their queries the best I can, but they keep pushing for more and more. Is there someway I can make them stop. I don't want to loose the gain I've made over my own psychological states. I feel I'm being overwhelmed by her. Do I have any rights that will help protect me?

This is the first satisfactory answer.

You can file a motion to quash the subpoena's based on their irrelevant nature to the pending divorce action and because they are intended to harass you, not lead to relevant information. The court has the power to quash subpoena's in order to save a party from undue embarrasment. Her attorney looking into your children's birth certificates has nothing to do with the divorce case and could be quashed based on that. It sounds like this attorney has gone off the tracks and is looking to place undue influence on him by sending these out.

This is the second question asked of you which I didn't think you answered in a question relevant manner. Could you please try one more time? This is a response to being given subpoena's not job related.

According to ADA laws are they violating my rights? - I told them in the first letter I'm under a psychiatrist's care and that I wouldn't be able to handle needless pressure or duress from them.

Their last response which is good enough for me as to seeking anything more

The ADA applies to employment and housing situations and not domestic or litigation situations, so I guess your attempt at trying to make a law apply to a situation where it does not is where I became confused.

They have a right to subpoena you and no rights are being violated under the ADA or any other law. You have a right to move to quash or have the subpoena cancelled by the court if you can demonstrate to the court it is unnecessary or if the sole purpose is to annoy or harrass. Additionally, if they are misusing the court process then you can also file a motion under Rule 11 of the rules of civil procedure for filing frivolous actions against you .

You have no rights under the ADA or FMLA that apply in this situation, only the rights to not be served with subpoenas with the sole purpose to annoy or harrass you. Of course, the best way to get away from the stress of this is to hire your own attorney who would then get the subpoenas and deal with them on your behalf and thereby reducing your stress.

So, ok let’s sum things up. As to the legal situation – I’m going to respond this one more time, and if they subpoena me again, I will try to hire a lawyer. They didn’t say that exactly, but there will be proof of the first two responses to say they are trying to harass me. I am not able to use ADA … I didn’t realize before it only applied to being on the job. As to my psychological state … that might support my level of harassment felt. I’m just not able to do this kind of stuff without feeling overwhelmed. It’s taken up the majority of my morning, time over the last month’s of visits with Dr. Marvin, and then that added to Jillian’s finding and using against me or fear of her erasing my blog did cause another suicidal pressure.

To be clear here … Jillian never said she was going to erase my blog (if she’d found it) nor did she say she would use it against us. But, the odds are that since she read the entire OH.com blog, and THEN printed it out, AND her mother is going to stay with her a month … well it just seems probable that they are going to use the account to make the situation in general worse.

There’s part of me that is worried about the kind of information they have, that’s a pressure in itself. BUT, we did put the information out there I can’t blame her for finding it … Most likely I would have done the same. But if she goes to use it to validate in some way the mother’s neurosis then that’s another problem.

I don’t mind that she learn of me … it’s just that I don’t want what I think or write about to be used to hurt Rich or maybe especially in her vulnerability her mother. It would be something the mother would suffer through for her time her on Earth.
Dr. Marvin and I talked last night about the situation with the subpoena’s and about the wife in general. I think his overriding concern is to help frame the situation in a manner I could deal with so that I don’t get overwhelmed with it. It seemed in that regard that I take a more global approach to being in this sort of relationship to the wife.

I would like it to be minimal because I don’t feel that whole situation is more my business then in supporting Rich when she’s overwhelming him. I don’t feel mean spirited toward her though we’ve for sure questioned what she’s doing and trying to do. I didn’t ask Dr. Marvin for his interpretation of her, but he gave it to us nonetheless.

I’m going to try now to refigure that out. I sure wish I had a better memory. Where do we start?

I think one of the first times Dr. Marvin responded to the psychological state of Rich’s wife it was due because I told him I thought she had psychological problems. Dr. Marvin stated up front that given the information I have given him – and I’ve always tried to be fair – but that the mother has very deep problems. I think the gist of all that is that somewhere down the line, Rich’s wife didn’t have childhood needs met where she felt she was being taken care of.

Thinking now … cuz Dr. Marvin was asking out loud … why now is she starting things with me … seems like the case was winding down and she hadn’t gotten her needs met by Rich then she might figure she could get needs met by me. We’re not talking in a cordial manner, but perhaps one reflecting her neediness.

Going back to covering this as concretely as we can … Dr. Marvin said that people with this kind of development feel that the world owes them and that they are feeble of taking care of themselves. Even the situation with her quitting work saying that she’s too disabled to work could be seen as another means of having Rich take care of her along with the government. She’s saying again … she’s not capable.

The thing is in this kind of psychosis no amount of care is going to convince her that she’s really being cared for. I think this was the head-butting situation that Rich has been in for the last 15 plus years.

Dr. Marvin acknowledged that Rich is a very giving person. He also said that he’s very dedicated. That corresponds to our thoughts he would never abandon us, but also that he’d never abandon his wife – instrumentally right now that seems to be his intent in providing for her financially and in trying to get the kids to take care of her. I think that’s wrong logic as far as the kids go, because they should be getting their needs met by the mother as the primary relationship instead of them taking care of the mother … who seems in any manner or form to be telling the world you are not taking care of me proper.

The feelings of not being taken care of Dr. Marvin says is an externalization that somehow in her child life her needs weren’t taken care of by her parents. Maybe there is something internal within her that made it impossible to care for her proper (in her eyes or psyche). Because she’s dealing with her problems from the past through others like Rich, the kids and now us … she is not able to take care properly, because she’s addressing all the wrong avenues. The problem lays within her not without.

She seems to blame everyone else besides herself for the situation she’s in. There was another concern brought up yesterday and that was the one with her gift giving to all her friends. This seemed to be a way to gain good feelings in that if she gives people things, then they will be thankful and than thankfulness would equate to her that I’m loved. It seems like a real backward way of going about things, but I believe pretty accurate. Problem would be that to maintain those feelings of being loved through the gifts she’s going to need continuing the gift giving in order to hold not only the friends attention, but to gain a sense of her worth.

It would seem that pretty much follows the kids situation, but there I’m least likely to see what’s happening. I know that she has some adverse relations to especially the older two kids. It might be the same with the younger in a passive aggressive manner. She’s too depended on Chris to get him too riled with her.

The only thing that I know about the kids relationship is that the mother gets angry at them when they don’t do what she wants them to do. It seems like a strange thought in my own life. I get hurt sometimes when my boys don’t feel responsive enough to me, but I know that it is my fault in that it is my over-expectation that is causing me the pain. The boys could be more responsive, but given their own lives set within their own generation, it is me that is causing my own problems. If I am able to be more realistic I realize that the boys are just engulfed in things that I’m not a part of and that it doesn’t change their love of me. I’ve come from a past of thinking if they weren’t depended on me that would erase my value.

I’ve long since known though that my value doesn’t dissipate if someone is not with me or is angry even with me.

This is a big difference between me and Rich’s wife. I’ve recognized for many generations that I have problems and I’ve been in a responsible process of dealing with them as they could be handled. I’m far from saying I’m perfect here, but I know I’ve spent a lifetime of effort with it. It seems this consciousness of myself good or otherwise is the difference between us. Rich’s wife is in a state of denial in thinking that nothing is wrong with her.

I wouldn’t have known that for sure, with the exception of knowing for the last several years that she gets very depressed and as this last week or two suicidal. Again major differences – If I’m feeling this unwell, then I know I have to call the good Doctor. Rich’s wife’s response is to go out and blame/criticize her family for not taking care of or caring for her enough. Jillian called her dad to say that he had to take care of her because the mother had gotten too much for her. Why the woman puts this on her kids instead of seeking professional help is beyond my thinking.

But, in the same respect, Dr. Marvin quickly stated that the daughter was barking up the wrong tree – not from Rich’s perspective, but that should MAYBE be his perspective. He’s not gotten to the point the wife has put him in of being responsible in lieu of her being responsible. Dr. Marvin almost laughs. He said that’s the whole point of divorcing … you are no longer responsible for each other.

Then he went back to saying that there is absolutely no reason that this woman shouldn’t be thinking I have to take care of myself. She’s flaying in the wind. He said in words similar that when most people get older they grow up. Well as you know I’m the least one to say I’m an expert in the field of growing up. For “US” that has it’s own set of complications. BUT, even if we were to consider that, I would say that at least as a system, we know that we have to take care of ourselves, in that we need to be responsible for our younger parts. For example … since we have younger parts we need to be responsible for keeping ourselves safe like not being at bars or out by ourselves in wary situations.

As a contradiction, Rich’s wife goes out often to the bars and concerts even though often she can’t even drive herself. It’s a more dangerous situation, which would be to say she’s either putting herself at risk, or somehow she’s not as disabled as she lets on.

But, by now I’m getting off track. It’s not my ideal of a good Saturday to be frustrated with a situation I have no responsibility over. I know that she’s reaching out in an underhanded overpowered manner in trying to rewrite my kids lives. It’s always an unwise thing to attack another’s kids. What might she think it would do to my kids to confuse the identity they share with their father.

But, that’s not even the point. My kids stand strong and tall on their own. This is almost humorous to them with the exception they might think of it as wasted energy. I wish I could be totally of that vein, but there’s part of me that wants to mother and take care in unhealthy manners yet. It would be a wrong thing to step into a caretaking position of his wife. We as a couple need to become less involved rather than more involved.

The distinguishing part of this is in the wife thinking to herself … I’ve been living with the problem (I caused) in thinking those kids are my husbands – and then somehow she deserves some connection to them. I can’t handle this on my own, so I’m going to make it your problem.

The obvious answer than is that I don’t become involved in “playing with her.” Maybe moreso than her family has been able to be disentangled with – I don’t have to buy in. More than anything else I believe this lady needs boundaries. No I’m not going to take care of you either. And, even more I don’t think in your aggressive or passive movements that you are helpless.

I think half or more of the world has got high blood pressures to use this as a disability is just wrong – though seems to work well with your whole theorem on life. YEEKS! Nobody needs that.

Ok, so how do I set my boundaries? I’ve got to realize she’s taken up my mind and mental space for a bit now … and then to release it … it would mean that I go in another direction that like the rest of my life doesn’t include her in it. So with that said … let’s move on.

Oh man … I busted my time limit. It’s already 2 pm. By now I was supposed to be showered and heading out to the post office. I think I thought of that earlier while I was writing, but it didn’t seem as relevant as to the thoughts I was trying to clear up. Now reevaluating the situation … I think I’m still going to need being responsible for a shower and I still should go out to the gym. I think I’m going to take a little more time with the mail situation.

I could go to the mail without taking a shower, but then I’d feel to dirty to go to the gym and as a priority the gyms probably more important. I think somehow maybe at lunch on Monday we’ll have to go to the post office. I really don’t want to rush now

Ok, we’re finding some progress. I took our shower. WooHOO!!
I also ate a wedge of meat loaf around an inch wide. Rich is always taking care of me – he didn’t leave without reminding me there was meatloaf, bratwurst AND ham in the fridge … we tried not to overload with the fact SOMEone is out of fudgsicles. But, then he said … well YOU could go and get them  And, then we said – ummm no money! He said I’ll leave you some. Then is the feeling of our head being lowered and our thoughts being accomplished in that I’m pretty sure we can’t do that much.

I know this is contradictory of all else *sigh*

Ok I guess this is where we lost time again. We’ve been gone and doing things, but I’m not sure how far we traveled away from Facebook. It’s also about 6:15 pm. I think this means Rich will be home in 3-4 hours and if he’s not … hmm, just as I spoke Rich called!

He just got off the field. I’m not sure all of how it went, but there was an hour delay at the beginning of the day. He said he was going to look for a place to pick up a sandwich. He had called his friend that was hosting the game, but he had not called back yet. It’s up in the air I guess whether Rich will go or when he’ll go. He’s really far north and he said that if they start the game at 7 he might come home first and wait for the second game. He said something like you lose money when you start late, so maybe you have to pay in on the pot.

I’m pretty uncommitted whether he comes or goes. Tonight we steeled ourselves up to be on our own. If he comes in early he’ll just say stuff like … you could have done something with your day. We went through a minor session of that just now. But we told him plainly without whining that we had to do our own thing and that if he recalled the 8 years before he got here we’d done every weekend just between us and the computer. This WAS our norm.

He still feels like I should be outdoors or doing something like him. Yeeks that would be a disaster – I’m just not built like that.

I did a horoscope and it pointed out accurately, we’re a homebody. HMPF!

We told him we had a Margarita and he said he sposed that would be ok. I told him to call before he came home so I could get rid of the guy. He said he’d do that, but he wasn’t going to tell me which door he was coming up. It’ll be a rush to get this other fellow out of here!

Hmm, I’m not sure what I like going on CNN. They are talking about gun violence. My opinion is that people don’t need them, but I know there are a lot of people who feel restrictions would be a violation of their rights. I understand my mother has a gun. Can I just indicate a LITTLE how that might scare me? God! I’m really trying to do better with her in my life, but at one point she was very abusive and violent. Why should these kinds of people be carrying guns. With all the damage done to us in our childhood, people with recognized diagnosis are probably safer than all the people not been diagnosed!

Ok, let’s move along here. Rich said I should be up tonight when he comes home so I can … well anyway let’s not talk about that either.

There’s going to be something on tonight on Martin Luther King because this day is the day how many years ago that he died.

posted by Ann Marie @ 4/05/2009 09:39:00 AM Comments: 0