Ok, let's then add a significant amount of more stress
Good morning … this is me. We woke up late this morning and it’s almost 6:30 am.To be fair I have by now showered, packed, taken medicine, fed the kitties, and made the coffee. Now I’m being flanked by two happy kitties and we’re about ready to wake Rich up again … He said when we tried last that he was still catching up and wanted to sleep til 6:30. Eh … whatever he needs.
Hmm, I think I’m hearing him breathing and sighing. UHHUH! He’s up! He looked pretty groggy eyed. He’s still a little stumbly too.
Ahh here he comes … he seems to have his coffee. That will help. He’s going to turn on the TV. He’s checking out weather. I think he has another game scheduled tonight. I don’t know if it snowed again last night.
Well, we don’t have much time today. So, we should talk a little about yesterday. The first thing I want to say is that both Rich and Maury stopped the processes of thinking that we can buy the house and move over. I had done a little checking and it would take at least $35,000 for a down deposit. That’s like impossible … Rich doesn’t have that kind of money. Matter of fact he said he wasn’t sure if he could pay his part of the money on rent.
That would be a problem.
Maury’s part of it is that he doesn’t want to move in with parents and he wants his independence and he thinks its way too far away. There’s more, but he’s pretty strongly said no.
Rich just said bluntly, that it can’t be done. He said it a little more starkly than that, but bottom line is that he can’t do it and he’s also thinking that it’s too far from work, even if he had the money which he doesn’t.
So with all that … it looks like we’re never going to have a house, especially my dream house. I don’t have enough time to now get into more of our feelings and thoughts in that respect, but for now … we’ve got to move on.
The other thing that is going on is that things have gotten even worse with the divorce from Rich. Apparently, we have to appear in a deposition in concern of his divorce. I didn’t get paper work on it, but his wife’s lawyer called and said that the date was going to be changed from this Friday to the following Friday – so the 17th.
I didn’t know anything about it, so they said they were going to send another notice. I asked if I needed to get a lawyer and they said that was up to me. I actually talked to the attorney, because I was pretty much stymied by what had happened and didn’t know what was happening.
He said it was up to me. But, then that was up to me, but then the question arises how are we going to pay for it. We don’t have any money in our account at all. I’m afraid to look at my bank account, but when I tried to get out $60 yesterday to pay for the postage on the stuff I had to send to the lawyer certified, it said I had insufficient funds.
I’m really doing poorly in that I don’t have the money back yet that was overpaid to the school loan account. I think I’m going to have to go through all the little stuff on my desk to make sure that I didn’t lose that check due to our poor paperwork processes.
I don’t know what all to do with that I don’t know how to get an attorney, but I think that they are going to take advantage of me if I don’t have an attorney. I just don’t know yet how to get one. I think I’m going to need working on that today. I just have about 10 minutes to go through now so I don’t know how were going to handle everything that’s happening. The biggest thing is to keep from being suicidal again. I’m going to need calling Dr. Marvin and seeing if he can help, or at least to make him aware that there’s added stress big time on the table.
For now though … we’re just in the hyper-worried state, because I’m afraid that this whole situation is going to become overwhelming. I don’t have a good track record in being able to handle stress. I’m also not sure how much information they are going to need on my mental situation. I don’t think they are going to care if they overwhelm me.
As to Rich … he’s just being blown away by this whole thing. He has a hard time talking about it, because he’s so overwhelmed. So, in that respect he’s not being a very good support right now. I can tell that he’s way overwhelmed, but then it’s his life too that’s being threatened. It’s better at this time to take my concerns to Dr. Marvin. We are really going to need looking into an attorney that’s going to be able to help us without the major money … I’m not sure if that’s possible.
But, for now … better get going – it’s time for work. I hope we can get through the day and get something accomplished. Yesterday beside watching the groups – nothing happened productive. I don’t know what to do with that, but in general we’re feeling the stress.
posted by Ann Marie @ 4/07/2009 06:58:00 AM
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