Slumbery Saturday Morning
Good morning … it’s just me. It’s about 7:45 am. We’ve been up for a bit, but we just thought we heard sweetie and sure enough he was already starting to gather dirty clothes … Yeeks. BEFORE COFFEE!!I don’t know what’s wrong with that guy. Hmm, we’re having kinda lousy typing this morning. Not sure what’s up yet. I just get him a little bit this morning, but I think he’s going to want to clean. There was a mishap last night and someone accidently pulled the table cloth and lost her margarita. That was a very bad thing, because someone may have regressed into someone that wasn’t handling it very good. *Sigh* Let’s say a God Bless here, k?
We better move on…
Hmm, so what is next on an otherwise perfectly good day? Oh there is something that is very, very important. Thom said he would come over tomorrow afternoon we’ll have lunch in.
Hmm I was just thinking of something … if the apartment is $900 and the food is $300, then that is $1200 – then shouldn’t Rich contribute $600? Since he pays the $300 food, and he pays $200 toward rent, then shouldn’t he pay $100 more – besides the $200 work … well we don’t want to talk about that, but I was just thinking. We need to have money enough to pay for Thom to eat over. But, we still don’t have money for the car
That was terrible … Rich came up and we showed him the account Beside $20 for eating out about a month ago, we haven’t had frivolous spending, but it said we were $124 in the hole, because they keep charging me $33-$68 for over drafts totaling $200.
My $900 rent went through, but then the insurance did an auto pay and health club, and music, and stuff like that then there wasn’t enough money. And, then Rich is yelling that I have to write it out for him, but I never do it right, so then he says he doesn’t have to help me. I got this huge pain above my eyes and I had to stop … it was too terrible and the car payment hasn’t been made yet. And, this week two creditors called. I tried to deal with it this week. I had called last weekend those consolidator’s people who weren’t helpful and I tried talking to Dr. Marvin and his people at the University. But, this is too much. I keep getting further and further behind. And, Rich says that I still owe money.
Now, we are both so frustrated we aren’t talking to each other … he said if I don’t cooperate then he can’t help me. I think that’s what he wants anyway … not to help me. He knows I’ve had trouble managing money … I can’t do it. This isn’t something that’s just come up. He just went past me … I think I’m still crabbier than him. I don’t want to talk about it anymore.
I have to think of something else. It wouldn’t have gotten talked about it at all, cept he came in back of me while I had the account open – he had returned from downstairs. Then he put the TV on, but I had music on … so I put on my earphones and now it probably seems like we’re drowning out our thoughts with the music and it would probably be true. I’m not good at dealing with hard stuff when someone is crabbing at me.
I’ll just stay here by myself today.
Hmm, Joe is up. 8:16. Now the cat thinks she wants up and I think no, I don’t think so.
Ok, sorry about all that … it’s about 10:30 now. We’ve been away from keyboard. We froze up in our mind … we went and crawled into Rich’s bed and held onto his robe and pulled the purple covers over our head because we were suddenly cold. I think we fell asleep. I think time went past and then Rich was there pulling the covers away asking me if we’d taken our medicine, but somehow we forgot. And, he made sure we were up and we took the medicine and went back to bed curled up. After a bit we woke up and we felt better. We helped Rich do some clothes and then we talked for a bit.
Apparently, he’d gotten a call from his wife … and I’ll not say more about it than that. Just remember telling him that divorces are hard. I think she’s trying to open a door for him to come back, but Rich says that he’s happy where he is at. I hope that he is. Because otherwise it wouldn’t be right. We’re going to let it go at the speed he needs it to go. Just gotta stay up on it when he wants and let the rest go. This is something he is going through. But, then there is the part that includes me.
I can’t imagine ever being happier … even with the strange things that happened like this morning. I think mostly it was because we were moving later and we’d not taken our medicine … usually it’s taken at 6:30 – 6:45 am. I hate to think it makes that much difference. But, then I know we get to places too when he’s pushing us too hard and he’s doing in cranky like. We need to go at things slow and supportive.
We just had an overflow.
Doesn’t mean I’m going back to money issues for a while. Though he says now that he won’t be going out until 7:00 or so, so we have a little more time to be spending.
Right now he’s working on organizing his basketball schedule. He is going to be busy … he says he’ll try to leave two nights open, but then he has other people and activities to fit in there. He’s getting out to see his son once or twice a week.
He’s been fitting in the obvious like fishing and cards, then there is his friends – like Bob, Doug, or his friend who he is watching football with tomorrow. I forgot his name … think it starts with a J… Well, you know stuff we’ve been mentioning all along. I think if we are going to sneak sleep when he’s out that we have to go to bed early enough so that he can wake us up when he gets home if he needs some back rubbing/talking pillow talk stuff. Yes, that’s a good plan
Hmm, whatever music is on now isn’t quite mellow. It had taken things up a notch. Ok, that’s not important.
We’re on our last cup of coffee unless we make more. I wonder if we shouldn’t have to go somewhere. I got showered so that is part of it. I think there are two more loads to get through downstairs. Two are done already. Be nice to take a walk somewhere … we should start doing something. Just the darn ability. We missed the appointment to get the brace and so now we are stuck without the extra support, but we could put on the icy hot pack.
Hmm, just presented it to Rich as a possibility before we back out cuz we’re scared of the leg. Said, museum might be too much, but maybe a park, or the zoo. It’s a nice sunny day outside, but definitely fall weather. I’d have to decide what to wear. I think we might be past shorts weather for outside. We’d have to see. I asked him about the gym offer he brought up earlier out of the blue. He’s back to we’ll have to see. He still thinks we gotta do something here and then work on it and build some consistency. I can see his point, but I’m not interested right now so we have to figure out that part. He’s gone now to get some more clothes … so we’ll be folding stuff in a few moments. He said that I should think about where I would like to go, but right now I’m thinking simple like the zoo. Just gotta get out there, right? I really would like to be able to take walks with Rich. Just don’t think we’re very capable. But, we need to start thinking of that.
We also have to think more of the bariatric surgery. Dr. Marvin talked to the right lady at the University who takes care of those kind of evaluations. He said we might need to take some time out to specifically go down a list of questions and stuff. I told him that would be ok. He reminded us that we always have complications that come up and we’re going to need dealing with them. We also have to figure out when our next appointment is with the weight clinic. We don’t want to be missing appointments. I haven’t thought much of it lately, except we’ve had some bad days and are still eating the candy bars. That’s trouble-some … we get into panic eating. There’s going to need being some significant work. I need to though next imagine a gym where we can be moving through the concept that we can be doing work there. The best image I have so far is watching us move back and forth in a pool, but then there are other things that need to be dealt with like swimming suits, getting dressed, and time. It’s a big thing to change a routine, especially with a track record for falling through or falling short of goals. Probably should be looking too for a support group for bariatric surgery
posted by Ann Marie @ 11/11/2007 06:29:00 AM
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