Just a few notes on the day
Good morning … this is going to be the start of our afternoon post Whoa … this is really afternoon posting … It’s about 4 pm and I’ve been mentally away most of the afternoon. I had done the morning stuff right … especially laundry, banking, and picking up. But, then we were having watermelon and we’d called Sweetie Pie and there was no response … and then we figured we’d check out school in that for the time being, we still have a place to go to order books. We couldn’t order any books, but we could see which books we could eventually buy from the ones listed for each of the courses that I wasn’t going to be able to take.
That way we figured we could eventually educate ourselves, perhaps write some papers and see where we might go. Hmm, should work for that grant writing idea … that was a leftover thought from this morning while we were at that track. And, then somewhere in there we got the idea that we could look at what we could buy otherwise with the school discount for as long as we have it. And, that’s where we got ourselves into trouble maybe. We got to thinking that we needed to purchase a clipboard type gizmo where we can write on our notepad with their pen and the deal gets recorded on the computer. AHA! I’d forgotten but looked it up … its an adesso cyberpad and cyberpen. It’s supposed to cost about $150-199. I ordered from a company I didn’t know for the lesser cost, but then when they didn’t respond back with my credit card information, I tried canceling the order. That’s the process we’re in now … might as well order it from Amazon, although they had two prices and I wasn’t sure about the case … I wanted to make sure I got the case for the cost and they weren’t swimming in information. So, now we’re in limbo not knowing after two messages whether the first company is going to let us out of their deal. They said something ridiculous of taking up to 24-48 hours to verify my credit card. That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard. The only good thing for sure is that they haven’t posted that amount to my account.
I am thinking the right answer here is that I should be canceling because I don’t have that kind of money to spend. It’s only $150, but its $150 I don’t have … The money in the account is to be paid to my creditors. Damn the check I deposited two days ago hasn’t cleared yet … that’s going to mean we’re a few days late with car payment. Shoot, shoot. Man too much aggravation. I gotta get out of that picture.
Shoot shoot … I called Rich twice now within about 15-20 minutes and he’s still not picking up. He should have told me if he was getting a game, and at that its been off and on raining, so I don’t know if any games would go through. Why isn’t he calling back!?? I think I’m going through buyer’s remorse. Damn … It’s 4:20 now and I don’t know where we are at. My normal thing is to eat through my problems … I had a grapefruit, but thinking its close enough to dinner that if Rich isn’t coming home, I would like to eat.
Now everything is unsettled. I think I need to put ourselves down … I’m not feeling good about this at all. Damn.
Hi Hi. This is me … We’re sitting in our living room kinda naked … It’s about 7:40 pm … we’re just getting done with dinner and we supervised Rich putting away his clean clothes. It’s such a gentle exercise of good will and there’s the pleasant chat that goes along with it, and then at the end if we’re really smooth, then there’s a little back rubbin. Not too much tonight, because loverbunny had to take care of about 7 calls and work on his divorce papers. So, we helped him forward with all that. We asked him to tell us his schedule again, and after that he sat right up … He’s a very hard worker.
Us on the other hand had had our hard afternoon so, we’d gone to bed … oh you remember that part. That part worked out real well. We woke up pretty good, but a little groggy. Our huggerbunny gave us something to do in that its my job to make the lemonade slushies. I’m pretty good at that now. Then we had polish sausage with the rice, veggies and salsa. It was very good, but he’d made too much so we left some … that was good diet thinking.
Hmm… We’re taking little breaks here. I’m not very good at writing in the evening.
Our friend is going through his calls and we talk a little in between things. Just a little relief stuff. I like listening to the sound of his voice and listening to him be supportive of the people he loves. He holds a lot of information and I think with each of us he has his set points … it’s like he has a little list of what needs to be progressed with each. He worries about people, but then relaxes too on catching up where everyone is at. I think he likes to know that people are progressing their own lives and that even some of the time they do it on their own, but sometimes I think he likes to know that he’s contributing.
As to our own hard afternoon … there was some relief after we woke up from our nap that our order was canceled. That helped a lot. It was just money we didn’t have, but the big thing is even though we couldn’t stop the original purchase, we did immediately figure out after that it should be stopped EVEN though we started that process with the wrong motivation. I think I helped too with loverbunny … cuz he didn’t want to resolve that problem too. We give him a lot of problems I think.
We’re starting to get better. I felt really good about having him worry less about us. I liked too that we could think happily to his benefit with the clothes today.
I felt a good feeling of being in a position of him letting us care about him a
little.
There was this one part of the laundry process while we were thinking that … unless we are at the computer and even sometimes then, we don’t really have a lot that is going on in our mind while we’re just going from one task to another. Like with Rich … he allows a moment to think and he is flooded with information, especially in organizing what is going on and what he has to do next. I don’t even think of next until I have some time at the computer. My mind is like a melody to Rich’s mind being like a beat. Hehehe hmm, have to remember and tell him that … think it’s a truism. I completed that thought with the sentence that and at that most of our tunes are fluffy. Silly girl.
He’s really involved in people’s life … most of the time that I’m away from the boys for example, I’m not actively thinking of they’re big stuff cuz I figure that when we do talk, they are going to have handled stuff and they are just going to tell me how its going. Rich is different with his kids … by being active I mean that he offers more of himself than I do, or how much I would be expected. He talks two ways – where he is listening then talking back and forth … in a sense collecting information, but then responding back to it. With me and the boys … we mostly listen to how they’ve been processing … so in a sense it’s like a summary more than writing the paper together. I should remember that when I start collecting his research. He just wants the summaries … I guess that’s a little different, but maybe not … maybe his kids are better at summarizing before they talk.
He does seem to have a good time getting a hold of everyone … but he’s definitely going down the line and the last of his conversations still are … well I should be going … there’s still more calls to be making.
I’m trying to believe I’m not going to get overtired. There was a couple hour nap, right? Funny Rich … He’s also like a bee I’m figuring … some of the news gets passed on from person to person – perhaps pollinating the flowers? Oh oh something is wrong with this next person … hmm, he’s figuring out the problem already. Now he’s teasin … silly guy. Little gentle scolding. Taunting the other on. Good then he makes a “there ya go” statement and I know that everything is back on track. Ok, ok … let’s not get too involved … still want to give him some sense of privacy. If I get too concerned then I’ll stop typing to hear what’s going on … I’m a little worried of his mother now. Ok, ok … shhh … everyone is fine … shhh … let’s not interfere k?
You know there is one more real neat thing about Rich and his phone conversation he talks to one like he talks to another. Same loveable voice, same concern for all … I feel like I’m hooked into part of his network. Another silly grin??
One more silly grin … figured he was doing a lot of talking … so we reached his lemonade for him. Good Ann.
Hmm, we forgot he’s probably going to make EIGHT calls tonight … this guy sure is busy! It’s about 8:30 pm now … we’ll have to decide how late we can stay up … should have earned some points though not many. I think he’s on call 4, but call 2 wasn’t home … that’s another thing about lover bunny’s people … they aren’t afraid of calling him at all times of the night. There was this one funny story about his best friend … Rich was talking of different styles of waking him up … we tend to massage him into it … but his other best friend will jump into bed with him leaving him thinking Hey! Hehehe He gets the funniest embarrassed look on his face. I think his friend just does it to tease him to pieces. There’s a picture on the calendar of this friend hugging him with that same “Hey!” look our friend is pretty gosh darn cuddly.
Hmm, think we’re going to check out the washroom and see if we can cuddly ourselves into his lap while he talks … maybe we can stay up, but we’re wanting most to feel his warmth.
posted by Ann Marie @ 6/04/2007 08:50:00 PM
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