Ayn's Multiple World

A Saturday and We're Movin

Good morning … this is me and I’m here and so are you … woooHOOO!!! Anyone notice that it’s a perfectly nice Saturday morning? Ahh, yes but a little late … it’s quarter to 8. We just saw our sweetie off for the day. He’s a hard worker. He has to do three games today. He says he’s doing little league boys 13-15. He says its kinda rough because they are all being coached by their fathers. The kids never give him problems it’s the adults. Wish they’d be a little more laid back. Our friend thought he had one game … then was reminded by someone that it was a double header, and then he had one of the people that assign games beg him pretty good. He said he hates to see a grown man beg. Hmpf! Silly man. Eh, I guess that’s the way it goes in professional umpiring.

Sweetie Pie asked us what we were going to do today, and I told him I really didn’t know. Just that we might want to put some time in on the project of Castles and Carriages. That’s what we’re calling our book effort right now of gathering together material from our blogs and journals. So far 2 chapters complete and there are 42 more to go. It umm might take awhile. And, that has to be offset with our desires to be writing again. It’s pretty normal for us, but we don’t know what we’re going to talk about in advance … we have to wait and see how it comes out.

There might be some good idea go into going out to put gas in the car, do our banking, and maybe even do some walking. I will have to find my check though … hmm maybe I better look in the other room while I take our medicine? Be a good idea hold on.

Ok, we’re back. I took the medicine, but couldn’t find the check. But, then I remembered it was in that secret cubby hole in my car with my other $2. WooHOOO Rich! Really need to pay some bills today … should look at the account. I know … no time like the presence. Hold on. Hmm kind of low … $610.45 … That be ok, but I haven’t paid bills.

Ok. Ok … that’s done … we paid bills bleh ptooey! We spent $21.90 Walgreen’s, $50.00 Social Security, $50.00 medical debt, $50.00 oral surgeon, $50.00 com ed, $92.93 Comcast, $50.00 dentist, $15.00 National Geographic, $68.83 State Farm, $81.76 Sprint, $15.00 Encyclopedia Britannica … so that equaled $544.72. I had only $610.45 in the account … so that came to $65.73. I am going to deposit $1263.22 today, but car and rent comes to $1264.97 … which is a deficit difference of $1.75 that comes off the $65.73 so $63.98, which would be fine, but there automatic payments before the next check of June 15th of medical debt $50.00 and gym $23.00 … so we’re $9.02 in the hole PLUS, we are on empty with gas and am going to need to park for Dr. Marvin. So … basically, I can do it, but we’re short $92 IF I did all the figurin right. Soooo, we’ll present our case to Sir Sweetie Pie and ask him for $100 assistance. I don’t have anything to really justify this because I think we were already even with him staying here money account … I don’t know how he figured it … but I think he gets credit cuz he paid for grocery … and maybe he helped us with Joe? I’m not sure … Think we gave Joe money for going downstate and another $200 just to make it. I can see an extra $100 was deposited so he could go downstate, but I don’t see the other … I do see that I posted $200 out of the cash machine where my son lives. So, I guess we’ll have to ask Sweetie Pie about that … I don’t think my medicine is going to have to be purchased until after the next check comes in. So beside that $15 magazine and the $15 I owed for software back whenever … there’s no fluff. I think to get 12 big national geographics for $15 is a STEAL!!! The software was when I was paying for the things at work. The bills should come down some for the Comcast .. that’s the big one cuz of getting off the phone. And, it didn’t show up this time, but I think I only owe Social Security $1100. They took an extra $900 from my account which means I would like to see that show up somewhere. This means I will pay about $500 between now and taxes again so they can only steal $600 more. Hehehe I know I know I owe them and fair IS fair.

And, I think that the Sprint phone is padded with start-up costs … least I hope so … don’t remember how all that figured in. We’ll have to see. I also forgot to check if we used up our minutes. Calls to Deb were adding up when I called her on the way home from work. So, we had to stop that.  Probably wasn’t safe anyway to be gabbin, but it was fun while it lasted. There was one extra $40 expense of takin Joe out and this time, which was well worth it and I spent $9 out on myself. AND stupid ol aol billed me for what? I haven’t been on their account for a long time since they went free. Oh oh … I remember … I ordered a movie. Damn They got me.

That was another frivolous expense. *Gulp*

Ok, that’s enough of that. I left the bank CLOSED!

More coffee? Sure, Ok … let’s have at it!

Hmm, pesky Missy is here … She’s thinking I shouldn’t need to see the keyboard to type … sheesh. Oh good, she calmed down. BUT, I don’t dare sip and the refreshed coffee. Ok, ok … we’ll get along … we can do this. She did something funny today … I walked back of her while she was eating and I didn’t pay attention cuz why should I, but this time … she hissed at me! Man-o-man I didn’t like that … I’ve never heard her do it before. I figure she must be stressed out. Our friend is trying to teach her not to settle down in his room … so she’s gotten caught in there a few times and I don’t know about her, but I sure don’t like it! HMPF!

Let’s see now … I’m going to have to start remembering stuff so I can be progressing time along. Anything right off the top girls? OHHHH ok, we’re going to take on Dr. Marvin, HMM?

Well, all I’m going to say about that … was that I think he was being a little bit tough on us! I think it was on purpose and I think it was because CARF is over and so he thought he could make up for some lost ground. MAN! He was being tough.

BASICALLY, he decided to enter a new conversation we hadn’t had before. He is suggesting, though we can’t remember the words and exactly how he did it, but that we are having issues with shoot always forget the word it’s a “B-word.” Not purging, but the other word, Oh, I know binge eating. It was like are you saying we have an official food disorder on top of everything else??? He put it in light of some middle ground position, AND he questioned us as to if we were purging too … but we don’t do that. I’ve done just a tiny bit of reading yesterday on it and it seems that binge eating falls under eating disorders not otherwise specified. And, the tendency is that people who are super obese like us are more likely under that category, because we are taking in extra food, but not getting rid of it.

I don’t know how to take all that quite yet. We were kind of shocked by it, but to think we could have a disorder seemed to make sense as he was saying it, but to give it a name seemed to make it more concrete as if … this is officially a very real problem. We were being suspicious of him at the time though. Like … why are you saying this? What do you mean? How do you know? I wasn’t figurin in the part that he IS a psychiatrist and he DOES seem to know quite a bit about us. I felt like, ok … you are not going to get me to admit to that because then the problem would be too big. But, there was this other part that was grasping some of the reality and starting to feel like she stepped into a sink-hole. I remember us asking … so, is this a little problem or a big problem? He said in the short run that it was a little problem, but in the long run it was a big problem. Then he started naming all these obvious medical problems that we’ve been thinking of lately. I don’t know why it seemed so much more official as he was saying it. I didn’t like it at all.

We asked how you fixed it. He named off a couple of methods like groups and psycho therapy, but it didn’t seem like anything either different than how we’d gotten into it – being so heavy, or something we wanted to do. AND, it seemed to be making my list of all the things going wrong with me that much worse. I even know them all barely. Let’s try to make a list

Dissociative Disorder
Depression
Anxiety
Obsessive-Compulsive
Eating Disorder NOS
Morbidly Obese
Diabetes
Osteoarthritis
Hypothyroid
Ulner neuropathy
High Cholesterol
Sleep Apnea
Moderately impaired memory recall
Legally blind

Oh man-oh-man … what the fuck did Rich get into? I’m like a loony-walking casket.
I know, I know … be nice, be nice. I don’t even know how to frame all of this … I can’t make myself comprehend how bad our situation is physically and psychologically. I can’t even imagine that a person such as this could still be living and breathing. Maybe if we scrunch it up a bit.

Dissociative Identity Disorder, Depression, Anxiety, Obsessive-Compulsive, Hypothyroid, High Cholesterol, Eating Disorder NOS, Morbid Obesity, Diabetes, Severe Osteoarthritis in the lower spine, Ulner Neuropathy, Sleep Apnea, Legally Blind, and with moderate impaired memory recall, but otherwise a perfectly nice individual.

Hmm? Let's put in here IQ 120 and with good sense of humor ... that would seem to help?

Oh Lordy where do we begin? Ok, I know let’s do it now. Ok, I got that point.

Maybe we should be taking a shower so we can remember to go for a walk in the zoo?

That be a good idea? Nothing bad today … Better go for gas first though, and then the bank, and then the walk. I think this is something that just has to happen. I know, I know ok, we’ll not jump immediately, but maybe in a few minutes we could start with that shower?

AHA! New motivation in the game … Maury just called and wanted to remind me that Ame would be playing soccer today and that next week would be her last week. VERY GOOD! Hmm, you know I think I forgot about the soccer last week … thinking … we were so into the house stuff that I might not have let it crossed my mind. It is now about 10 am and the game is at noon, that means get there early so leave about 11- 11:15 … hmm, better get in that shower now … I’ll brb. Oh – and that zoo thing … should still go. Yeeks forgot about gas and bank. Should leave 10:40-10:45 hmm?

Better get going girl … and then maybe go to the zoo after, or come home and wait for Sweetie and maybe go out with him for a walk … I’m not sure, but I’m thinking he’ll be home from about 4:30-6:00. Hmm, what to do. Let’s play it by ear … I’m not sure, but the weather could get up to 80. I think we’ll start in shorts and the sweatpants and see where it goes from there. Ok, you know you need a shower though, right?? Shhooo go!

Whew! Back again … I think I now have about 20 minutes to go. I’m dressed up to shorts, shirt, and socks. I stepped outside and it seems very humid … so I don’t know if I want on the Sweat pants because they are more difficult to move and very hot. I would prefer shorts, but then again, I don’t want to embarrass my son and granddaughter. Hmm, speaking of. I think I want to take a look at the video from the pictures last time … I forgot to show Maury. Hmm, I remember now … the one picture downloaded was clear, but too small and the youtube big but blury. I’m looking at a so-so blurry very large picture … shoot gotta go … see ya … smooooooooooch!

WooHOOO Back. It’s about 2:30 now … we had a caramel malt and a grapefruit for lunch … sort of haphazard. We did everything almost and more. We didn’t go to the zoo. While we were at the game our memory ran out and we didn’t know how to take care of that, especially out in the sun where I couldn’t see the screen. We’ll figure it out soon. Besides the pictures I just took, all the others are saved onto the computer, so I should just be able to find one delete key and they’ll be gone … probably a good idea because there are like 600 pictures there. I’m kind of bummed though about not getting a whole collection of pictures from this last set.

Grrrrrrr…

Hmm, was reading some news and then I heard the kitties and looked and they were right next to the chair. Chief, umm wanted to mate with Missy. I guess no one told him that he couldn’t because of a little operation – for both! I guess it made him feel manly non-the-less. I think some of his authority has been usurped by Rich and he needs to work through some hen-pecking. They are finished now, but poor Missy a bit spent. He had her at the neck and was riding her … I don’t think he understands in the least that Missy’s his sister! That be terrible. Yup yup … better to have them fixed. He started showing that kind of behavior about 4-5 months. No kitties for us!

Hmm, so what next to do with our time … we got about 3 hours before our Rich comes back. Maybe we could do something in trying to pick up here a bit … especially since he’s getting back before dark. WoooHOOO! That’s a good idea … some domesticity. Think we usually start with the desk … let’s see what we can clear.

Oh, and then we might say a few words about our granddaughters soccer game! Yup yup.

Ok, back for a 15 minute rest. We did most of the living room, but we need to do the clothes that I left in here. That’s a real bad habit, cuz now its Rich’s living room too. I remembered to water the plants outside too. Don’t want to be responsible for them not making it through. I will then do the bathroom and the bedroom AND THEN the kitchen … Maybe even start up the dishwasher … hmmm? That’s a plan.

AHA! I think we’re done … it’s 4 pm now. That was pretty good. We got to all the rooms and the dishwasher is swishing away. Good girl. Maybe it will be almost done by the time Sweetie Pie comes in … he’s going to need his legs rubbed after doing 3 games. He’s also going to be dehydrated. Hmm, we were thinking of that … we got those beer left … Maybe just 3 left. We are thirsty. We just redid the water bottles and put them in the fridge they are not done yet. Hmm, ok, Saturday afternoon, kickbacked. Time for a beer and bare footedness … they can always be put back later. BRB. Nothin like a cold Miller lite on a hot summer day.

ESPECIALLY if there has been some accomplishment. I’m doing a whole lot more now … gas, car wash, bank, soccer, saw a house, damn we weren’t going to say that.

But, I was just curious … I drove by an open house off the route coming home from Maury’s … but it was like $555,000. That’s like way over budget. I think Rich and us both have good taste, but over our budget, IF we were to HAVE a budget! Hmm, we did do our bills that has to count for something and we picked up the house AND we did our blog. That’s some pretty serious doing. Well, it’s true we’re only up to just barely page 6, but it is like a real entry. The last house was a beauty. They had a Master Bedroom off the main living room which was pretty open to the dining room and kitchen. The living room wasn’t huge, but nice windows and floor and it had a fireplace. Then the kitchen was done in some kind of slate. And REALLY nice cabinets … Darker wood, which isn’t my first preference, but done up to about the ceiling and there were sky lights and a door opened in back the dining room. Most of the yard and there was a lot of it and it was terraced nicely were to the sides of the house. So the yard faced the busier street and the house faced the neighborly view. The master bedroom was further back from the living room and about the nicest part was there was a bathroom back there with a full size Jacuzzi all kinds of neat windows up high and a sharp clear shower. It was a sex haven!!! Anyway there was a little lobby to the left of the living room and about 8 stairs to the upstairs where there were two more bedrooms and a full bath. Going down about 4 stairs there was a nice open family with its own fire place that you could see from the living room.

Nice and more windows. Then there was another bath and a laundry room with again the slate floor. TWO brand new machines, washer and dryer and of course everything was stainless steel in the kitchen. There were interesting fixtures, sinks and such. I think he was going to be responsible for building a two car garage onto it. Not sure about that part. Nice home … Too much money. But, it gave me a chance to see what homes were going for in our neighborhood.

The realtor was a bit of a problem though … she wanted to keep talking and I wasn’t in the mood for it. She was a single mother with child from teenage pregnancy and living in a Brookfield apartment. Ok, like … hold on … don’t want all that information. I was left thinking that I needed to hire her to save her from herself. But, that’s not my first choice of expert. I realize I would probably go to a closing with her boss, but no thanks. She didn’t know her houses … just the few she’d seen … she had to be out to more open houses to know the neighborhood.

Any way that was that of that no commitments, but I had to sign her sheet saying that I’d looked at the house. That’s how they get customers and she had asked me if I had a realtor yet. NO! I’m not even the one buying the house. I didn’t like what she was showing me for houses in the price range of $320,000-$350,000. Didn’t like it in the least. Nothing like the old house shopping where an expensive house was $100,000. Our Victorian with 18 rooms we bought for $78,000. Yes it was in very bad shape … Divided into 4 apartments. But, at the time my husband didn’t have enough money to use the whole house on our own. We kept the rentors on the first floor and then we used the Attic for a family room for Maury and the boys. Seems like such a long time ago. Time has gone on and left me somewhat behind. I see though that Rich is getting used to the idea too of houses costing so much money.

He’s got 9 years to pay off the mortgage on his place, but his wife and son could live there a couple of years. He says that she hates the house though. Maybe its more user-friendly without a husband? I don’t know.

So, anyway that’s where the majority of his money is … tied up. I think he could borrow on it, but I think he already has a second mortgage and I don’t know if that makes a difference. I need to step back from more than idle curiosity. I’m not going through that mess again. BUT, fireplace and Jacuzzi was nice. Having a yard is like window dressing. Eh … grass to mow. Hmm, now if he could get a big enough yard for a driving mower! But then, if it broke he’s the type that might leave it sit for awhile. That’s what happened to his. YEEKS! I could see me out there trying to shovel a driveway. NOT! Yeeks and double YEEKS!

Hmm, having problem with my hand falling asleep … things need to get fixed. Hmm, maybe I should look again at batteries. I’m HMPFD with the soccer game because I only got in a little up to a quarter and the disk filled … oh we said that already.

I suppose I should deal with that … because you never know what Rich is going to want to do coming home in the light and all. WOW! That’ll be something. There’s Margarita Mix in the house too! Just add ice and SHAKE! Ok, better fix camera … at least the phone is charging … that’s a good idea.

Ok, good … that’s all done … we’ve got the pictures pulled from the camera, then we cleared the disc, and now we have the batteries recharging … good deed! It’s about 4:46 so we’ve got some time left … Not sure how much. But, within an hour maybe both phone and camera ready and that makes me feel good. Maybe Sweetie Pie and us could take a drive tonight.

Hmm, the pictures were nice, but not great without the whole series … such a disappointment, but if I even tried to delete it at the game, it would have erased the 20 pictures I’d already taken. I just couldn’t erase what I already knew we had. Hmm wonder if Sweetie is going to call soon … he said something about me helping him to do the dinner … maybe I should check the cell phone in the kitchen to see if he tried to call. Hmm. No call, so we left him a message and brought the phone back with us. The dishwasher is drying now … so hopefully out of his way for cooking when he gets back. Maybe we could have dinner out on the patio again … this time before its WAY too dark. Hmm, driving or dinner … bet you we get only one.

Hmm. Well see how he is when he gets home … we’re guessing tired.

Feel like we’ve been out in the sun for a while. My arms feel a little stingy.

Next week is the last game. And, then they are all going out for pizza. Maury mentioned it a couple times, but didn’t invite us – so I suppose that is out even if I could have handled it. We were a little concerned at today’s game, because my daughter-in-law came with Isa during the second half and stayed away from me the entire time saying – Oh, I was sitting over there. She didn’t make any effort to say hello even after she was moved out on the field to talk to Ame. I wasn’t even sure if it was her, because she wasn’t facing me and I wouldn’t have imagined she didn’t come over to say hi. It’s to HER daughter’s advantage Gramma’s like me come to watch the game. Maybe she’s just embarrassed of me, or maybe she’s just somewhere else. I don’t want to get dragged to that space. She will remain to me a mystery. It still stings the feelings, but I’ve no reason to expect more.

Isa at least looked excited to see me. After she recognized me she smiled and tried to wiggle in her mother’s arms … I felt grateful of that. There’s much too much going on in Ame’s mind to sit with a gramma. She has things to climb and shake, and people to be hugging or jumping with. She did come over a couple times for water and I liked that. But, mostly we just watched her and the team and our son. So proud of him for the job he is doing with the kids even if they’ve only won a couple of games. The other team had a couple of mavericks – one who was far superior than anyone. Someone got kicked too and he was in tears and I felt bad about that. The mother next to me had the son who did the kicking … and it was a mistake he had aimed for the ball, but the other boy had kicked it first. I guess this is the part they are supposed to remember when they get old … what it was like to be growing up and taking the hard knocks. Shoot … kid is going to make me cry.

Hmm, something just happened … we’ve just been somewhere, but I’m not sure where.

Ok, trace backward. We have a second beer, turned back on some music … weird stuff – a “female focus” station from the Lite section. Hmm I know that song. The Bangles hazy Shade of Winter.

Ok, truth here is that we’re concentrating on not much than Sweetie is to be coming home … we’re back to that point of thinking can we do something nice for him. We made his bed, but that was minor. He had to be out by 7:30 pm. What could I do … I’m that kind of 50’s woman who wants to meet her man in silks and a drink. But, I would actually like to keep on my shirts and shorts in case we eat outdoor. It’s the purple shirt and that’s his favorite. I think we’re going to have to plan a trip to the laundry too, because I’m out of clean clothes. I wonder if he is thinking that direction. Well, no I could come up with something more romantic, but clean clothes are important too. We’re trying to change the channel the woman’s channel keeps switching styles and its too hard to listen too. Ok, we’re now giving the relax trax some time … they say alternative tunes for mellow moods.

Hmm, I remember now it was important to get to those dishes because the blender needed cleaning from the coffee grounds. I wish I could duplicate the feeling of having a steak out on the grill. Something so that he remembers how nice a Saturday night at home with the woman can be. It can’t all be about sex, but that’s of course what happens as an end result. I think we need to work on our mind we need to put it somewhere that is lovely and sweet and arousing and impactful. Hmm, can that mix be done? I’m thinking that I’ve got time … it’s quarter to 6 pm his due time, but he hasn’t called so I think he’s running late. Hmm, this song is rough … too much repetitive on a bad chord. That’s nice Bobby Darin on XM Escape. This one says instrumental arrangements from the past 60 years. The last 60’s one had too much “hard core” music … we’re much more like a sappy person. Hmm, I wonder if we could get a buzz off just a few beers. That be kind of interesting … meeting him from my own alternative expression. Let me check am I a nice person or a mean person?

Well, I haven’t hit the cat who found a place in my arms … that’s a reassuring sign. Ok, ok … he’s not going to walk in just at 6 pm. Don’t want to call him and let him know we were ready to gobble him up. I think we have to be real nice to him. NOOOO complaining. Plus, we haven’t got anything on our mind to complain about … everything is going pretty good. I think he was happy when we called about going out to the soccer game. Good us!

Thinking of Johnny Carson and how he had musical segments between things … this is what the instrumental music is reminding us of. I’m not sure if I like it … It seems like good mood music, but its undefined. I think I should have something interesting to talk to him about … what might he be interested in? We haven’t talked about his kids much, nor the fishing of late. And, I think tomorrow he has to work on the divorce stuff some. He said it was my day, but then he talked about maybe going out to fish in the morning. I don’t know if I do enough in the day to keep him interested. We don’t have to clean the house this weekend. What is it going to be we do. I’d like him to see that movie with me. Hmm, I wonder where I put it.

posted by Ann Marie @ 6/03/2007 06:42:00 AM Comments: 1