Ok, let's clean up a little around here this morning...
Good morning, good morning. Just me … we’re plugging along here. We’ve seen V. off to his shower (we never peek!) and we’ve been listening to the recordings most of the last hour and a half. But, we figure that we better be moving along with our day. It’s kind of background stuff while we’re messin around. It’s now about 5:30 am.
We’re still being pretty amazed by the recording process. If you checked out the last post, you might have noticed how looooong the recordings are getting. We felt a little frustrated yesterday, because we lost a little over an hour to goofing up the recording, but we went forward YAYYYYYY. It’s absolutely unbelievable how easy it is to ramble on and on. Most often, I don’t even realize we are talking … it’s like we always have done it, but I’m not sure whether or not we have. I know the kind of thoughts we are having have been thought before, but I don’t remember if we talked out loud.
We were encouraged yesterday in that I think at least 3-4 articles mention the “self-talk” as being beneficial to the processes of completing tasks successfully. The reward factor afterward at having heard and been able to capture all these processes is pretty amazing. Whoops, just lost V. for a bit. Poor guy has to go out and work hehehehe nenenenenennana HEYYYYYY, don’t gloat … he’ll be having time off latter half of the week while we’ll be pushing up the paycheck. V. says that today he’ll be home around 10 am, which is 9 am our time, or in hours … 4-5 hours. Hmm, I wonder if he’ll remember to bring home a TASTY PIE!!!! Hehehe that’s like V and A language of all is right with the world.
Hehehe I had skipped around on the tape this morning, so at this time on the tape its about 5 pm. Think there was about 40 minutes left, but I had needed to take a break like we did periodically in between to use the washroom or refresh our coffee. I’m getting to be quite the entertainer. When I leave for breaks I’ve been leaving some music on. Just experimenting. At this point, I’d left Destiny’s Child. I never really have listened to her just heard a couple of songs. Don’t you just find life so gosh darn incredible???
Back when we were in college the first time, almost 30 years ago, I would have never, never have figured I’d be sitting at a home computer, doing research, recording, listening to music, making pictures and movies … sooo many many fun things WOW! Shoot, what’s going to be out there another 30 years from now?? I figured if I lived to my grandmothers age, I would have like 40 years AFTER I had gotten a long-earned doctors degree to be playing around with God only knows what kind of technological world they’ll be living in at that point.
We had a really nice talk with my Grandmother last night. She gave me some time to talk about what I’d been doing with the paper and the recording and stuff. I think we both decided that I could babble on for quite a long time hehehhee. She likes to think she is not computer suave, but I know that between me, my uncles, and other cousins, that she has heard quite a bit about what computers are all about. I had thought my younger uncle knew more of computers through his time in the service, and I’m not quite convinced otherwise, but my Grandma says he’s just learned computers after he got out of the service. He had a life time career in the coast guard. My other uncle however, sounds like he could compete with me as far as hours on line. REALLY, I don’t think he could quite match-up. CUZ, I think he has to have time for all his travel, meetings, and family time, so that cuts down on computer time. No doubt, he’s leading a life that is more balanced with people and retirement type tasks … you know vacations and such.
It doesn’t surprise me in the least that he has a computer or two at home, and up at the Lake where he spends the majority of his summers. Yup yup yup … I could take lake living when I retire, BUT my friend seems to think that there is a lotta flies and mosquitoes involved. I think he’s finding the farther north you go the more problems there are. So, maybe we won’t retire that far up. And, it’s a little funny, but now that I’ve been in Chicago for the majority of 25 years, I’d have to wonder which state I would settle at between Wisconsin and Minnesota. I would enjoy my home base of MN, but WI would be much closer as far as maintaining some contact with the boys. Last night with our Grandma we talked about having doctorate students in the same courses as our masters work. I told her our education plans of being in school for the next 10 years. By then, I would really hope I was qualified to write books and programs. I see that as the primary reason to be in school, especially that long. I think she is really getting to have a sense of how strongly I feel toward the whole thing. Now as I’m sitting here 358 minutes or almost six hours into the tape, I have to admit that I very much love the processes that were happening in comparison to anything else I could be doing, with the exception of watching out over a nice view. BUT, I would have a computer between me and the view!
Hmm, seems to be thunderstorming out there … beauty! We talked about my Grandma seeing fireworks last night too. She likes to think she’s too old for all that, but I told her we were imagining the sparkle in her eyes. She says that she has a very nice big window facing the back area where there are trees and a nice yard and that her place had before set-off fire works in the space. AND, that she could lie in bed and watch after it had gotten much later. She says they haven’t advertised an event so far, so she didn’t think they were going to continue the practice this year, AND I think that her nose was a little offended by all the smoke that would gather toward her window. But, I still wish she had the opportunity to be seeing fireworks. She says its just like any other day, but I think that most of us throughout life maintain a little excitement toward the “special days.” At least, I sure do hope so. I’m not even going to go toward the part where we’re so cut-off during the holidays. *Sigh*
I think she must have been doing pretty good the last couple of days, but she says she’s been doin some good sleeping. We’re starting to tease her a bit about that. We encourage there is so much to be doing. And, we’re reminding her she should be out visiting a bit more. We had a nice talk about the hours. I told her that often, especially last week with our friend gone that we’ve been getting home or discontinuing work so late that we felt we were missing out on the calls. BUT, she said that I could call up to 8 pm at night. WOOOHOOOO! We’ll try not to go quite that late, I think at a certain point, she’s likely to wind up in bed reading (she does every night), but I sure would like to talk to her more often than every 3-4 nights. I really like the every other night schedule. I think she enjoys that more as long as she’s not on the phone with someone else.
Last night she talked a little bit about her three kids calling, some a little more than others, and that she had a nephew and a niece she talked to fairly often. She didn’t mention other of my cousins calling frequently, but I’m not sure that wouldn’t be more private. I think the one cousin who does so much for my Grandmother visits more often than calling and it might only be once or twice a month. I think there is another cousin and his brother that might come over like once every couple of months, and my mother is there probably about every 3-4 weeks. From last night’s conversation, she seemed to be saying that it was either a flood of contact, or at times, she said, she doesn’t know if her phone is even working its so quiet. So, here I think we’re going to merge over to V’s thoughts that she really might like the calls. I sure do like talking to her … she’s up to being one of my favorite talking to people. Hehehe she talks about more different things than even V!
You know that’s a funny thing about V. I have no doubt that he understands EVERY thing I write about and probably soo much more, but we really don’t talk about the hard stuff very much. Every once in a great long while will catch him talking about the hard stuff, but we have to be very sneaky. Hehehehe
Whoops about to the point of signing off on the recorder. I am pulling up the next study so, we’ll be prepared for this morning’s work. I haven’t started to study early in the morning for awhile now. So, I’ve got to figure out our next move. Sometimes when we are not doing the work, we are thinking that it is too hard for even us! But, there was a certain beauty into listening to us just ramble. Part of that is because beside going through a few writers like KEITH … most of the time I’m actually having such a good time … EVEN when I have to think harder thoughts. Fortunately, a lot of the time I’m working we’re not pressing our brain terribly hard. We’re just going through mechanical steps. And, definitely writing is more challenging the reading, and we’re doing much more of the latter at the present time. I don’t know if we’re going to tape writing too. It might be too cumbersome on my thinking processes, but in theory I would like to do it. I find even like right now that I a m saying words out loud, but it is really low level speaking I sound like I have some kind of speech impediment because I am not THAT fast a typist anymore. I do like that I can talk and write at the same time. It’s been many, many long years gone by since I’ve had to concentrate on which keys I’m hitting. Usually, I am thinking the word as it is getting typed and I’m able to speak as a reflex of what my fingers are already doing. If I were to think of stretching my fingers in any which way, that might drive me a little buggy. I think in words, not letters. Is this the same for everyone?
Another funny thing I’ve learned about ourselves is that we read at different speeds. Sometimes I find ourselves reading out loud the whole thing as if we were reading to someone else. I’m finding that I’m able to understand the words as I’m reading them which was something hard to do when we were younger. I’ve got in mind having to read the Bible out loud for church school or pre-confirmation, but not being able to pick-up the content when we were doing that .. and it was the same with reading from my desk at school in elementary years. Now, we’re finding that we also sometimes read or skim through materials faster. If you were to listen … this would be the time we’re finishing about a quarter of each sentence before skimming forward, or we’re saying one or two words than going blah blah blah … Usually when we’re doing that we’ve picked up content that is not important for us to be verbalizing or even reading … we’ll skim ahead looking for words that are of significance. Pretty cool all told. Mostly because the whole process is something pleasant to us and that I enjoy.
Hmm, kinda leading up to the part that I should get back to work. It seems like before I do that though, I should have my medicine. My timer is not longer stable because it needs a new triple A battery … otherwise I could set it for when we need to take the medicine. Hmm, you know though it’s already 6:19 am. We’re only about 10-15 minutes to that time anyway! YAYYYY!!!! You know I’m feeling a little chilled … that’s leaving me feel a little reserved. Oh … I know what’s happened … we forgot to eat! Usually we eat about 5 am. Maybe that’s why I am feeling so spacey. We’re going to need figuring out too if we need to turn off the air, or just put on a warmer robe. Ok, little break here in making ourselves comfortable … we’ll be right back.
Ahh that was a good break … opened door … rain has now stopped and the birds are much more audible. We took our medicine, ate some cereal, used the washroom, and poured ourselves another hot cup of coffee, and last am having our after smoke.
We introduced all on our own a smoking conversation with our friend. He never watched me light up with out scowling or saying something negative about the habit. To be fair, it’s unusual to have more than one smoke in his presence. I always insist on one after a meal. Last night when that happened … we allowed ourselves to talk about what we perceive to be a hacker’s cough. You’ve heard it if you’ve listened to us for any length of time. It’s not a real bad cough, nor does it hurt or anything, but its made me nervous enough to bring it up with him. The danger is that now that I’ve done it, it will be used as ammunition as to why we should stop smoking. I told him, we didn’t know that for sure, and that maybe I could wait until after I talked to a doctor. He said, of course, you don’t need to see a doctor to realize that the cough is continual. He, then OF COURSE, went on to say I should stop immediately while there was still a chance of it not becoming real bad, which OFFFFFF COURRRRRRRRSE makes sense, but we naturally don’t want to hear it. But, he was feeling again refreshed after a nice vacation to go into it with more insistence, especially since I opened a door to him. He introduced the concept of laser therapy and he went further stating that he would pay for both his brother and myself to quit smoking. We held on for a few more moments, but then had enough fairly soon.
AHA! We’re back. We progressed another tiny step. We looked up laser and hypno therapy in the Chicagoland area. We have one company each calling us back … hopefully within the next two days. It seems that both are trying to cancel out the other, but if information on either is correct then laser helps more with the physiological problem and hypnosis helps more with the psychological problem. I know the hypnotic program is done here close to home cost $98 for a two hour group session and they will have one on July 25. I’m not sure if the session is filled up yet, but I asked them to call. I also placed another call with them because on August 22, or there about … both on Tuesdays at 7 pm at a local hotel, hmm, the second session is for cessation of eating habits. I said during that one that myself and a friend were interested. That will be the deal … I will go through with the first if our friend goes with us for the second. That only be $300 to say a lifetime of problems … well worth the cost. The other one for laser could be more expensive like $250 for half hour. Of course, it is individual. Though, they didn’t say exactly what the cost was. I’ve got an email since then stating they would call back. If my chances were better with both, I would try both. I am really actually pretty worried about the cough … It has already changed in nature since it started and has been going on for many months. It is more noticeable since we’ve started recording.
We had a very nice time last night, but then I would be telling you nothing new to say there was massaging and playing to be had hehehehe. It was a nice surprise that our friend stopped over. AND, I think he’s coming back today YAYYYYY…. Earlier, we’d talked through IM and a couple of key things were said. There was a little more on fishing, but more on the state of fishing than the actual stories of what had happened. We got a few more interesting things, but we better not transmit heheheh. The really only other subject that we haven’t discussed too much is that we both need to focus again more on the diet. We went over key features, particularly as concerned food choices for when he goes shopping. I think he is going to go pretty soon again and I’m goint to try this time to pay him the couple hundred that I owe him. Hmm, reminds me we should check in with our checkbook to see how all that is happening … really pretty sure I need to pay some bills. Might as well do that now.
Hmm, bank account isn’t opening for me at the moment. Taking too long too load … I guess we’ll have to let this go for awhile. Maybe check it later tonight. It doesn’t usually happen and there is no way I’ve messed up my account numbers or codes. Maybe there will be a reason to later empty my cookies and such and sign off and on … that would be my next guess of what I should try.
Hmm, running out of reasons not to be writing. Just that age-old problem of wanting to clear the air before I get involved with something again. *sigh*
Can’t really say we’ve changed to much over the last few pages. Hmm, better check in on the animals before we get too carried away.
Hmm, that was unusual … I opened their door and there were only three of them there … Green frog with blue shirt, Brown Bear, and Off-white Bear with Pink Dress. I asked where the others had gotten off too, because I didn’t hear anyone go out or anything. Off-white Bear with Pink Dress tried not to sound over-concerned, but I could hear a tinge of worry in her voice. She said, they had all gone out last night to see if there were any fireworks, and that there had been barely any, but that they couldn’t get Baby White Bear to come in!
So, they decided that a few of them would stay with her and they would have a little sleep out. There is really no use of trying to get her to do something she just won’t do. I think she was determined not to miss anything in case they really did start up. So, I peaked out there again.
I could see the concern radiating from the bigger animals. So, then we tried to talk to Baby White Bear. She finally came in and she’s already lying in her bed sound asleep Funny animals. You know what they think of as normal and what we think of as normal is not always the same thing. I had talked to Wild monkey for a few moments. I guess there was a very long story-telling period last night where they were all talking about their favorite fire-works displays and such. Do you know that Wild monkey has never set off a firecracker?? Yup, yup it’s true. He said one of his friends got hurt by a set of them when he was very young. He said he wouldn’t touch one now with a ten-foot alligator. Heheheh they’re so silly. BUT, it seems like Wild monkey is actually pretty reasonable with his advise. He said. If you want to avoid trouble … don’t knock on its door. Kinda proud of him … he’s so smart!
Well, everyone seems very happy, but tired this morning. Better let everyone get some sleep …But, ME??? Back to the salt mines! Time to get back to the life we’ve drawn up for ourselves. I can do this, right? Just have to try! That’s what Wild monkey says at least, and we have no reason to disbelieve!
Chow!
Postscript: The lady from the laser thing called back ... it was worse then expected ... It cost $298 and she said the affect lasted for 10 days. I saw on another add it lasted only 3 days, though I thought somewhere it read lifelong. She said you could come back one more time, but after 10 days you wouldn't need it ... and, I said uh huh, yah ... well, thank you for calling back, bye! I'm not so sure how good hynosis is because I've heard it doesn't always work either. But, I've got going for me the multiplicity. One thing they say for sure about multiples is that we are highly hypnotisable. So, for the same $300 ... we're going to try for 2 sessions to get through eating AND smoking, AND to bring our friend in for eating too. He said, he would pay, but I'm pretty sure if I didn't smoke after the first month, I could pay him back equally with smoke money saved! Ok, really back to school now because its 9:38 am and the V has come home. YEEKS. Double-step!
posted by Ann Marie @ 7/03/2006 09:03:00 AM
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