Ayn's Multiple World

Shaky time in transposing time ... be ok, right?

Good morning ... this is me. It's now Sunday morning, but it's already 8 am. I've been up for a couple of hours, but it took that long to get through the morning news and to read where we were yesterday. I didn't have a recall as to what we'd been saying last. I don't know how much I am retaining in my memory, but we'll see if we can progress.

I just took our medicine and I took a shower. It felt real nice. Pswhoo. Life is good.

I'm not sure of my agenda at this point, except I know that I want to be writing of something, though I don't know what that is right now. I should say that we've got on the side of our writing screen the blueprint for Somerset II. I think yes, I'm obsessing on this, but it seems to mean a lot to me in some overriding pro-life thing. Maybe I'm going to need waiting 6-7 years when I turn 55 myself. Though I still don't have it locked down as to where the money is coming from.

I'm a little worried about my AOL account for the Journals. We've only got til the 31rst before they shut that service down. I wish they'd be more exacting as to what they are going to do with the journals. I don't know if they are going to get rid of them altogether or if they've got the journals going to another blogging service. It seemed as if they were saying both at the same time. I know though that there is no way I can get it all transferred over. There is just not enough time. There is too much to do and not enough time. I feel like I'm too stunned to panic. Just don't know what's going to happen. I know that I can't take work time to be taking care of it, because I'm so backed up in getting other things done. I really have to be more serious of getting things done. We're at the point now where we're going to need getting things done for making our state regulation testing ... I'm so far behind I don't know what else I can do except to seriously schedule time and will into that project.

Ok, that's enough of that for the time being. I wanted to say something as I'm thinking about it that's very good news. This morning, I got on the scale and we're now at 250. WOOHOO!!!

This is such outstanding news that we're beside ourselves in joy. It's a major news item. This means that officially that we've lost 87 pounds. Our next major goal objective is to hit the century mark of 100 pounds that will come at 237 pounds. That will will also hit the mark of being exactly 100 more pounds to go. So at 100 pounds down and that much more to the end goal ... we can REALLY say we're at the half way mark. This is extemely good news. So, we're going to need making sure that we maintain our schedules. I think this morning ... maybe about now we should check to see if the swimming pool is open.

Shoot I just checked and it's not open again until the 10th ... and today is the 5th so that means it will be open on next Saturday. Hmm, now we're going to need figuring out what to do about that. Are we going to try going into the gym everyday, or are we going to do every other stuff. Maybe it would be a good day to think about going to the zoo? I wonder what the weather is going to be like today.

Hmm, just opened the curtain. It seems like a nice blue sunny sky. I wonder if poochy is going to be home and if we couldn't do something like the zoo together. I'm thinking though if he does come home in the afternoon as he'd planned then we're going to need to be doing laundry. Hmm, that reminds me we've got that basket of unfolded towels left to take care of. Maybe we're going to need doing that pretty soon. I think I should also check the status of the dishwasher and make sure the living room is picked up. I hate for Rich to come home and find the place disheveled. That wouldn't seem fair. I wonder if he's going to be doing some picking up work too at his mothers. I know his biggest objectives were to keep his mother safe, and to make sure Bud keeps his feet up. I can't imagine he'll be sitting still though. If he's not doing something physical, most likely he'll be trained in on his computer and phone messages to be taking care of business. Hmm, I wonder if he's now watching his news special show. I could be turning it on myself, but I don't really want to get into something new. By now ... the news on CNN is a little repetitive, so I'm able to tune out some of it.

It's funny, but I don't really have a lot of incentive in listening to anything else, with the exception of the military channel. But, I think that channel repeats itself more than even CNN. I did watch a couple of movies last night. Both were movies that we'd ordered through Netflix. One was Harriet the Spy, and the other was the Ugly Dashchund. Both were very pleasing, though I think that Harriet was a little too sad for me to sit comfortably through it all. I did watch the entire show, but I really felt bad when people were picking on her. I really gave her credit when she started fixing her honor. I was so happy when the kids in her class started to accept her again.

The Dashchund - sorry if the spelling is bad, but that show was very fun to watch. I think its as old as snow, but the scenes with the dogs were wonderful. They were so well trained ... basically, if you missed that show it's about a mother dashchund that has three sneaky puppies and she milkfeeds also a great dane. They were very good. It was amazing all the chase scenes where things were going wrong. They made such terrific messes. I felt bad there too though that the little dogs were creating the big problems and the big dog was getting blamed. But, he saves the day at one point and Suzanne Pleshett - sorry on the spellling again, but she learns to finally appreciate the dog when he goes all out to save her favorite dog. From there it only gets better - Happy day!!

Ahh ... it's about 8:38 right now ... we just left a note on hunky dory's phone. Hmm, where did those sexual thoughts come from? I'm pretty sure I wasn't thinking those things before I dialed the number. Sheesh ... it's been now HOW long? Yeeks! I better put that on the schedule too. Hmm, maybe ...

Oh shoot. He was on his way out to pick up his cord to recharge the phone. He had to go within about a minute and a half. He said also that it was raining out there. That's not too good a thought in consideration of going to the zoo. Maybe I should check the weather for the area. The good news is that I got to talk to him for a little bit. He said that he actually did remember where all those important things were. *Sigh*

The bad news is that he said he might have to stay out there a couple of more days. That's not good new for me. I can handle him being gone, but I so much love it when he is there. There wasn't enough time to talk about anything going on out there, but I figure if he's staying that means that his step-siblings aren't able to cover the time. I don't know also if that means they are still pretty negative as to the mother's drinking. Rich is going to have to let his phone charge up for a bit, because the reception is so poor inside the house. I know it's going to be awhile since I hear from him again. That makes me feel kind of low.

We're going to have to retrack our thoughts. Seems like we have the day to plan on our own. That means if we're going to the zoo ... we'll be taking the walk on our own too. *Sigh*

I think the zoo opens at 10 am. I better check that part. Yup, yup 10 - 5 pm. If the weather would hold out, I think the zoo is the best deal, because we really need to get a change up from the circuit training.

Hmm, just watched the news for a little bit ... they had a media stylist discussing the VP debates. They've been on the VP stuff now for quite a while and that's transcending to the Presidential debates on Tuesday. I like the feeling of there being something to look forward to.

Shoot ... that doesn't help anything ... the weather says that it is 50% precipitation. Damn ... now I'm really going to have to decide what to do. I'm thinking that I could actually try something like walking in a mall, but I'd really have to leave all sources of money somewhere else. And, even at that ... I could spot something and be sneaky enough for me to come back. I have to make sure I have enough money to put something down on rent. That part we're trying to avoid altogether.

Oh Lordy. The account says its at $194.94. That's not even enough to put a trickle on the rent. Plus I don't know what's coming up in the next 10 days on auto let alone gas. What the hell am I going to do now ... what happened to the last $400?

It looks like a couple of things. Theres a few dollars from iTunes and parking and such, but it looks like the State farm came out and then there was the money I put toward Thom's Salliemae account. Ok, let's choke back the tears here. Somewhere too ... they got more money out of my bank check. I wrote it for $1000 and there is $1031 taken out. How in the hell did they do that? That be like forgery? I know I wrote that check out for $1000 even. $31 isn't going to break me, but it's sort of the pattern that there is not enough money in the account.

There's no doubt that there is not enough money to pay the rent. I'm going to have to call Mike and tell him that I won't have money in the bank until after the 15th. I will tell Rich about it, but then I have to face that there won't be enough money in the bank to pay the next set of bills either. Ok, Dr. Marvin ... I think this might be where we start to disasociate. Hmm, it didn't help that our gas last time was $45.

Oh man ... I'm glad I checked. It seems there was some kind of error that I'm not sure is cleared up. The check is written to Sprint Nextel, but I certainly didn't authorize that ... but then there's something across the top that says VOID VOID VOID. BUT, they still took the money out of my account. Oh man ... Now my car payment is going to bounce? Maybe we should try to get ahold of our bank.

Oh Lordy, lordy, lordy... I've just been on the phone for this whole last bit of time It's now 10:13 am. I just got off the phone with the bank and Sprint. Neither of them want to take any responsibility for the check amount of $1031. The best I've gotten from this is that I need to go to the bank and do something ... something has to be done so that this doesn't happen again. It was a check that was written on the 29th and cleared on the 3rd that says I now have a $917.37 credit on my Sprint account. They are willing to overnight expedite getting the check back, but they are taking out the amount that I owed on the 21rst of $113.63. It's still going to take two days to get here - Tuesday and I'm going to need to get that check to clear and by then I'm going to have overdrawn on my account for that check coming through from the car dealership. The person on the phone said that maybe the bank can clear that, but if there is any chance of that happening then somehow they are going to have proof that it is their error. It's confusing too in that the woman at the bank didn't have a copy of my check, but claims that it is handwritten, even though I'm looking at the voided check in my account for $1031.00. There's another curiosity in that I'm on check 1000 something and the check on this account is 9278. That's terrible. So, we're going to have to resolve these mysteries before I have a heart attack.

At least sometime this week we're going to get most of the money back, but I'm going to have to stop at the car dealership after the bank. Shoot, is it even open on Sundays? Damn I don't think so ... better check. Oh man ... they are not open on Sundays. How in the world did this happen. Sprint says there is nothing on our account to say on-line payment. I guess there is nothing to do, but get to the bank. We'll have plenty of energy then to do the walk at the zoo if its not all spent first and it doesn't rain. If I'm going to the zoo and to the bank, then I should wear fairly normal clothes, but if I went to the gym, I would need shorts. I guess then the thing to do is to wear normal. Better get dressed now to work toward that end.

Ok, we've gotten dressed. I'm not real happy with it, but it's going to need doing this fall. We put on the running pants and jacket that is a little too big now and makes swishy noises when I walk. The good part is that it's appropriate for the temperature and occasion to be out. In the meantime, I had a piece of hamburger that Rich had left and I opened a small can of fruit. I'm going to need slowing down now to take care of that. It's some kind of passion fruit. I don't know what that's about, but I spose we have to handle everything today.

I think if it weren't for the stress that the AOL Journals is causing, I could enjoy this weekend a little better. I've only taken just a little bit of fruit, but I'm thinking it's already enough. That patty of meat must have been enough. Time to be thinking what I have to pull together for a trip being out. I've got pretty deep pockets in both the pants and jacket, so I think I'll just take from my purse my Driver's license, insurance, and zoo pass. Do I need anything else from my purse. I'm definately not going to spend money even if it were in there which it isn't. My guess is about 1/2 way, so we're good there. Shoot might need the check card to say that I have that checking account. So ... we'll do those four cards. Then of course I'm going to need my phone and iPod. I charged the phone over night and I charged the iPod this morning. Fortunately that works on my home computer AND my laptop. Hmm, I wonder if I could contact Walgreens today and get the wheel chair taken care of.

Hmm, made that call too. I won't be able to take care of that matter until 8:30 am tomorrow morning. At least I have the right number. The other call I have to make is to insurance .. hmm, I wonder if I have that number? Hmm, have to go through the 800 number that's no good ... they've got a busy signal. Insurance can't close down on the weekend can it? Might have to wait on that ... the car dealorship said we're good for a month, so it should be ok. Just have to wait patiently.

It's 11 am now. I don't know if I can think through anything other than this money deal. I'm wondering now if I should carry some kind of bag. Thinking of keeping ID cards safe, my machines, maybe a book and some water. Not sure ... there's the other version that's more free flowing. Should get out before it rains.

Hmm, not so happy right now. We checked through our black leather bags. We've got one that's a little too small and one that's a little too large. The small bag is much more pleasant to look at, but it feels small around the shoulders. The second bag has two straps, but is a little heavier on the back. Part of that is because I had the extra space, I packed my whole small purse, two bottles of water and my camera. I was up on my feet enough so that my back is feeling a little stressed which makes me question the whole idea of going out on a long walk, and if I do go if I should take the pack. The alternative would be just to take the couple of ID cards and hold one bottle of water.

Need to think here. Maybe I could take out the book and one bottle of water, then if necessary I can take out the purse except the cards? Let me rest a few moments and slow down my mind.

I like to be supplied for anything, but then I like the feeling of traveling light. Oh man ... now the back of my knee is hurting. Why is someone dumping this all on my head? I really need to get out.

There ... I lightened the load with that last choice ... If I'm going to take pictures, I won't need the book, right? Might as well make that choice now. I think my mind is going to fast to process reading anyway. Now I just have to break away from the computer. It's 11:30 am now. How do I get my mind ready for this trip.

You know it's going to be ok after we get out there, right? Without the rain ... it's really nice. What could we look forward to seeing? We're not too well thrived on looking at animals. We usually try to set some goals as to how far we're going. Hmm, that makes sense ... we'll have our music or books. That will be good ... and we have those timer things ... why don't we look at that now? That's right ... we have a distance meter. Remember how much fun that was?

Just testing out the system ... think we have to use the washroom too. See we're getting closer. Just gotta remember that I don't think after we started the program we could switch over to something else. Wasn't that right? Be good for me to get away from Wolf Blitz. Hmm, I think we could almost start, but let's decide that business ahead of time. Usually our working music is Coldplay, but we've got the motivational stuff and Obama. We've been listening to Obama more than the other. Maybe we should be listening to motivational ... seems if we're a little low in that area. It's harder to go to both the bank and the zoo. Feel like it's going to be too much. I'm thinkin of taking one of those medicines for stress, but I don't really want to start that all up.

Oh man ... Rich just called and it was a lousy connection and it hung up ... shoot and again and again. This is more frustrating than if he didn't call at all. The last time he says he'll call back first if he loses me, because he'll know better where he is at. I feel pretty close to tears. The first call before we lost him he said for sure it was going to be another couple of days. He said he was on the way to the post office.

Maybe I should cancel everything and go back to bed. *Whimpering pretty bad now*

Hmm, now he called and said he's coming back in a couple hours for the afternoon, but that he's got to go back. I told him about the zoo and he's saying I should to then, or that he'll do what I want when he gets here. But, maybe if he were here, all I would want to do is sleep around with him. We're pretty much in our littler people voice, I must be the one who cries so easy. This is supposed to be a good thing, right?

Maybe we could skip the bank? Maybe I just need some fresh air. Maybe Rich could come and do the bank with me. Probably he'll want to eat out anyway? Maybe we'll just eat in and be in our jammas or something like that. I couldn't find our card either for the gym club, they let me in yesterday, but I don't think they'll do that much without charging someone for a new card. I feel like crying pretty bad.

I think maybe I'll try that and skip the bank, then maybe I can talk to Rich about it. Maybe that's an idea. Then we could set up our music. Hmm, we turned on Brian Tracey the motivational guy ... maybe that will work. Not getting things cleaned up anytime fast though. That will have to wait. Rich would be happier if we got out and came home in a good mood. He doesn't even know we're at 250 now. Let's post quick, use the washroom and get out ...Rich would then be home sometime around 1:45 - 2:00 pm. That's a good goal to get through the zoo, right? And besides the bank is open until 8 pm. That's enough time to do the other later maybe with help. Rich won't want me to stay home tomorrow to take care of it. But, I don't want to risk that its going to take me down further than I could handle. The hard part getting the money back is happening at least. Should be here by Tuesday, right? And, that's the night of the big debate. Just gotta get through things one thing at a time. And, if I can make my mind think real clear ... I just gotta put down a period, and then post and then use the bathroom, and then go in our new car again! Right? Maybe we'll take a couple of aspirins too so the back doesn't hurt so bad.

posted by Ann Marie @ 10/05/2008 11:54:00 AM Comments: 0