Very hard morning
Good morning … this is me. I have a disaster day. I think I’ve double booked a couple of meetings. AND, I think that I got Thinking Group today. Oh man … that be a terrible thing too. I think what’s happening here is that anything that can be avoided IS getting avoided. Really I’m very sure about that. Hmm, reminds me were avoiding bill paying too. Damn … this is really not going well. Right now even … Rich just got done with his shower so we’re avoiding that too because we are supposed to go in and have a shower. Man-o-man … this is being terrible at its worst. What is happening to me? How did I get so irresponsible?I think I will avoid that question. Hmm, cat is sitting on right wrist … that seems like a good reason to not do much of anything. I better stay home…
Hmm, we’re done with our shower, medicine and bag packing. We got our clothes pulled together and am having a cup of coffee … It’s already just after 6 am. I’m trying to avoid the thoughts that we’re avoiding things … don’t want to build up any more anxiety than we already have.
Ahh we just reminded honey about the plant that needs watering, but then he reminded us that it’s been raining for two days.
Hmm, got me there! But, he does it with a cute impish smile so nothing you can do there. I have to face up to things sometime … Maybe we should convince ourselves that we really do need to deal with something. Most likely a calendar would be a good idea. Maybe not at first of the day to day stuff, because we’re blowing everything off, but maybe at least of the meetings. We should know about them so we don’t overbook. And, I think we have a meeting on everyone of the three days after the weekend. Man … I don’t know what’s going to make me want to come in for that. I’ve got to get some kind of grip on things.
I think it started from being frustrated with not having time to write the reports, or prepare for the meetings, and then getting every morning taken up with Group 1 and then having leadership group. Somewhere in there and all the other stuff, we’re not feeling inspired to do anything serious. Hmm, thinking now about the staff training too. Everything is just gotten to be so much that my avoidance is running very high.
Hmpf … just got done talking to Rich … he’s trying to make bargains … he said he would get on the scale if I made his dinner for him. MANOMAN … I don’t even do MY dinner and his dinners are complicated! Then he went right from there to a discussion on my obsessing with fudgesicles. It was just going from bad to worse. But now … it’s time to go to work. We’re going to do a big WHIMPER here!
posted by Ann Marie @ 9/05/2008 06:54:00 AM
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