Dropping 300 Pounds
Good morning. It’s me. We’re here for a blazing two days in a row. I’m not sure for how long. It would depend somewhat on how much time is writing elsewhere. I do how to continue doing some of the good writing that I have been trying to do. But I’m aware that in the process I’ve been shortcutting myself. It’s been worth it to be communicating fully with Thom though. Hopefully having a printer in the house will help take off some of the time that it has taken to be writing by hand. But, then knowing me I would have written twice as long … so maybe there’s no winning.Ok, caution here right from the start … we’re still having some of that negative thinking from yesterday … If that continues – I’m putting us right back to bed, do you hear??!
Maybe I should just go now. But, then I might miss fishyman. He’ll wake you up if he’s going to call dear.
Ok, better? It’s now a couple of hours later it’s about 6:30 am. Chief just showed a temper tantrum by attacking a box in the living room after we refused that he sit up on our table with us. It was too much to hold him while we typed and recouped.
Oh dear he’s down below me still looking up. I suppose we could give it a try? We slept with a pillow on our tummy for the inevitable when they jumped up on us last night. It seemed to work.
Well ok, this isn’t real comfortable, but its bearable. He likes to continue the nap after we get up. You probably know that part though. Did I mention he was a large cat?
Last night I dreamed that people had found out about the surgery and had given me all kinds of donuts and cakes and sweets. We had stuffed them in a roll top desk.
And, then gone back between taking care of a situation with Holly and a client in one office and between Sean coming up to our office and we went to excuse ourselves from the first one and we got lost in this dismal city scenario, but we finally made it back and there was a changing of the office area and Rich was there at a meeting and there had been more work given from the old job – and oh I’d been carrying Isa during the last part of getting back from being lost and there were beggers and thiefs and we got to this one floor of a department store and we were trying to get our way back to the right place and we’d remembered from another dream it was behind something in the basement to the left of an escalator and we could vaguely recall the floor. So we got on an escalator, but it was going past terribly speedy in hieroglyphics in amazing increments until all things including planets were speeding by and we ended up somewhere far past that. I don’t recall much further … just the buildings and clothes were different but that structures were structures. And, then toward the original dream – We had been handed Rich’s journals which were all the source records from his facilities, they were too heavy for us and then Sean was rushing out – who seemed to have been waiting all this time … so we went rushing out after him. We were apologizing after the door closed behind us because we had gotten lost, but then he was leaning up against the post hitting on us … and things that we didn’t mean to be saying as suggestive he was taking as suggestive and he was physically all revved up in a sexual manner, and then Rich came by and put him back some where I think the end of the dream happened about then. It occurs to me now that we sweets as lovers might be synonymous, but most often beside Rich given the two we’d take the sweets. We might have had these thoughts because it seemed as if someone were hitting on us last night from the OH.com site. I was like … don’t go there a couple times in response to his one liners of going over the edge. Maybe it is normal for the room to talk like that, but I don’t want anything of it. I usually avoid those parts of conversation with the exception the few times I’ve tried speaking out against it in some manner of form and to little avail. As important as the room could be in giving information … this part of it is like incestuous and most likely turns away hundreds of people a year or more. But, I’m not interested in that part … it makes me cranky.
There new start of paragraph. Missy had been crabby that Chief was up here and not her … so she showed bad behavior in attacking the couch corner. It’s frustrating when they do that … the thing is like little pom-poms in the corner. It’s limited, but now suddenly we feel cranky about everything. We gotta calm down. Was going to go pay my car payment … just remembered but there was a problem with that bank page. We’ll wait, right … it’ll be ok.
We had a longer call with our Sweetie and it seemed as if he were calmed down. He was pretty frustrated during the 5 minute call earlier. His partner’s brother-in-law had died and he had to go home, which left Rich 3rd person in his buddies boat, but then the buddy snapped at him saying he couldn’t bring his lures … I guess Rich snapped back and then they didn’t talk to each other for a bit … and well you know how guys are. He had to go quickly because they were calling him for poker and he didn’t want to seem like a baby because only I knew about that! Right! RIGHT! Ok, now we were finally on the right track!
When Sweetie called back it was closer to 9:30 – 2 ½ hours later. He’d won $140 from the guys – they’d let him keep the 2nd position he was in which put him after the preceding month in First place over all and they eased up on the restrictions they’d placed him under for today … so that he could gain some credit if the boat won for the day. I guess yesterday, he and his partner Ron took home the club’s 2nd highest record-breaker for the biggest weight total of box fish caught during their tournaments. The guys in first place didn’t count, because in Rich’s eyes they were like 7th and 8th place in the general standing. He said he’s now got 58 of the total 60 possible points. WooHOO to lover doll! That made him a little happier.
He wasn’t ready to talk about the Bob-situation though … we’ll have to check that out later … We do know he wasn’t giving Bob much room to cut him down this morning.
He was going to be ready in 4 minutes sharp! Plus the fish are all biting so that’s a pretty good sign it’ll be a good day, right? He won’t be home until 7:30-8:00 pm tonight. I sure hope he’s talking to Bob by then!
Ok. We did some “stuff” and took our medicine. It’s 7:15 am now. For the record we’re at 300.6. That’s a difference of about 7-8 pounds lost over the last several days. I think we were retaining everything for a while and hopefully that part is all good. We ordered some protein powder yesterday which seems to be the thing to do according to standards put out by the group. Taking protein is the top #1 rule in all the books as to this kind of surgery. They tell you later how to do it with food, but for a while, other ways have to be sought out. Hopefully, not long because they are expensive.
We’ve got an appointment btw with our doctor next week on Friday about 10 or so. I think we are going to need Rich to bring us in, but we haven’t talked about it yet.
It’s at the far end of the hall. That’s going to need some help. I think we’re going to need arranging Dr. M’s by phone call too unless Rich wants to bring us in for that as well. Not sure. He said he doesn’t have games scheduled, but we’re guessing he still has work. One day I’m going to be sooo past all of this. Rich said that he prayed for me that first night home and he doesn’t do that often … I know he was feeling terrible about being away, but then I was the one who had pushed him to go. It wasn’t like telling him to leap off a high bridge, but a certain well-placed nudging nonetheless.
Good me … we’re doing it right? Just gotta get through today. We survived the night … AHA! Maury just IM’d for a second. He checked on me. He says he’s going out to rike whoops that be run/bike. The kids are sure doing well with being in shape … I think I’m an anti-motivation … see this can happen to you. Ok, shhh that’ll be enough of that …
Yes Ma’am.
Feeling restless … 10 minutes on the other … forgot to take the pain part. Maybe I’ll give it til 8 am and then either go back for another nap or go back to writing Thom. It’s still pretty hard to think for long periods of time. Message Board way too hard.
Ok … me again … not getting very far with this note, but I got a good nap AND I took my shower. It is now 10:30 am. That will take a bit out of the day. I am feeling better. It turns out though that I left my phone do something wrong and it ran low on batteries so I missed my Sweeties call … he sounded pretty tired … I hope he got SOME sleep. He’s got some serious fishing to be doing today. Just a couple more hours left now … We better put in a prayer. I had to add addendums cuz I had to remember extra stuff. Good Rich. Hope he does ok.
I’m thinking this is the day that Joe is coming over too, but I don’t know when. I thought he said in the morning, but when someone’s been up all night he might be tired. Hopefully, he’ll want to come here to get something to eat. Hmm, better figure out that part. We can order from Papa John’s or have him pick up something on the way – Thom usually gets a sandwich and some chips at the Mr. Sub place down the block. We’ll see what time he comes in. I think he’ll still come in – cuz at least that’s what he said. No reason not to doubt that, cept I worry about everything … make a note … bad habit!
Hmm, what we’re we going to do something with our phone voice recorder deal … I’ll have to think of that again. We were going to start making recordings of something, but now we forgot again. I think we’d figured out something before the surgery … drat!
We just ate lunch … It consisted of 1/4 cup of broth, 2 tbls of jello, and 1 tbls of frozen popsicle/slushie. I know nutritious right? I think it shows a healthy appetite given the circumstances – just that not much you can do on liquid diet.
I’m not sure if I mentioned it, but we ordered protein supplement – think its powder you mix with water. We got cookies and cream version … eh it was a toss-up. :)
You want to know something though?? For the record? After the shower we weighed
ourselves and officially?? 299.0!!!!! It’s about as official as we can get without Rich here to witness for us. We’ll have him here to do a weigh-in with us in the morning. We also had thought before so I better set up … but we figure that we’re going to start doing the web cam again … better do that now.
Ok, took a bit of time there … had to move some pictures around so the file wouldn’t be so big. But, in the end … those are pictures that broke 300 WOOHOO!!! Kind of excited by it now.
Ok, there ya go maybe a little more of a smile … we are a kinda happy ya know. Pretty big deal actually to have gone off and done something this radical … Pretty much because we want to believe in ourselves this much AND we want to believe that we can bring Sweetie with us where we are going. I know he’s not going to suddenly up and have surgery or nothing, but maybe between the two of us we can work through healthier eating habits.
While we were at the hospital, we both got to laughing thinking about something he was saying – he made up a scenario where we’d be out with Bob for the first time and Rich would get his food and break off a tiny corner for me to have and I’d be so appreciative and then to watch Bob’s mouth drop open … we both wanted to tease him.
Rich says that he still asks about having dinner with us and I felt bad because I’d never have a regular dinner with him where I’d eat and eat like I used to … Wow that’s all gone now … it’s really all gone. Just haven’t gotten on top of all that yet. I’m still seeing the big person. Well pretty big … I’m no longer a 300 pounder WOW! Never again. Just won’t ever happen. How can I say that and believe I am really, really letting all of that go? I’m just not comprehending it.
Hmm, maybe a picture.
Yes, I think it’s starting to flesh out now … pardon the pun. We’re labeling her Dropping 300 pounds :)
posted by Ann Marie @ 5/18/2008 12:04:00 PM
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