TGIF
Well, it’s like this. We’re still at work and have a half an hour to go. It’s been a very tough day, and after leading the 40 people in the Thinking Group for an hour, I’m exhausted. Something goofy happened today too. Poor V is going to roll his eyes when I talk about this. I’m figuring that I should let go of it. We’ve been tripping around it all day.The day started normally, no warning signs, but then at 10 am, we had the Administration meeting. It was late because my friend was late in coming in, but not too bad. Soon into the meeting he brought up a sticky issue with the other Q. There are 4 at the meeting. They started loud, talking over each other arguing. They’ve done it for six years straight. Everytime they talk about a different table of contents for the case file they all go nutty.
I shook my head when Sr. looked at us. And, I said, I’m not getting into that, each time it’s a huge problem. The other Q wants to make a six year issue about one secretarial type form. I’ve changed 1000’s of documents over the same amount of time. Eh, wasn’t going to let it worry me. I didn’t know, but that was one. It’s the only thing I said at the meeting to that point.
THEN, my friend brought up the satisfaction survey I’d worked on. As soon as he said the word, “Ann …” Sister nearly rose out of her chair. Her exact words were in a loud voice and pointing finger, “Honey, let me interrupt you right there!” But, my friend was eager to argue out his points. I knew that Sister hadn’t brought up the survey, didn’t want to go through the survey, and was angry I even handed in a survey, and now my friend was pushing it at her. Sister had already said, “Absolutely not!” to it. Then my parrot peer who had obviously been shown the survey by sister said the same thing, “Absolutely not, could we do that survey.” I told my friend looking into his eyes seriously, “please don’t go there.”
That’s when Sister blew up at me. She said 2-3 small things I didn’t pick-up, then she yelled, again pointing at me, “Well, let me tell you this! I’m sick of your negativity, that’s it! Get Out! Get out right now!”
So, I left. What’s been going on in my head has been terrible. On the outside I’m as cool as a cucumber. No demeanor change, nothing negative. V. gave me the advice to go back to my work, so I did. I thought maybe we should call Dr. M., so we did. He said, I checked-out, was doing great, and so on. My friend came out of the meeting; both our desks are way in back where the other two Sr. and the other Q, are way up front. He said that Sister was sending him home. It was pretty obvious; she didn’t want him to be talking to me. Nobody has talked to me about this and its now 15 minutes before TGIF.
We’re trying very hard not to get confused. This is what usually happens. My friend had emailed me asking if he could still come over and that he’d stop and pick up a few things. We said, k. I can’t tell you how I feel. Maybe stunned. Pretty sure I’ll get written up for this. But, I should just smile and nod my head. That’s what my insides on the better side are saying. Repeating over and over again. Sr. has some pretty big problems, don’t make this one mine. But, it’s ok, to write it out once for the record? It’s funny, two of my topics at Dr. M’s office on yesternight, we’re what to do with all the negativity between Sr., and our friend. Ok … stop there! Most often we feel like some of the most happy people in the world. I’m pretty sure we’re much closer to that than negative. If you tell your boss you are having a hard time with all the yelling, that isn’t negative, right? Shoot, this is second session with Dr. M. on Assertiveness. Maybe not doing so great on that. Deep breath. And, this time … we didn’t even cry!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Looking forward to 5 min from here!
posted by Ann Marie @ 1/07/2006 12:00:00 AM
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