Ayn's Multiple World

Nice Saturday - Hmm ... Let's make it a zoo day?

Ok, Good morning … it’s me … and we’re biting the bullet and just writing …. We’re not on the straight and narrow here … think we’re overdosed on too much. Hey! Stop with all the dots you’re making me dizzy! And, someone pull up the sleeves on that sweater … the mere touch of it is making me electronic in the hoisty boisty manner if you know what I’m talking about. No. It’s ok … just finished a good amount of shredded wheat thingies – dry with vanilla frosting stuff on top … no we didn’t plan for it, but we could see it coming in the wings and we didn’t do anything to stop it like as sweetie for help with it before he left. Now, we are flying high in an optical illusion. Jeese … this is terrible. Yes, we took our medicine – about 8:30 am. We’d been doing pretty well before that … woke up about 6-6:30 am got into the flaky news then spent an hour waking up with Rich … lotsa good touchy feely stuff, but he was slow to gain consciousness, but I could maybe now see why … it was good touchy feely stuff hehehe.

Then he was getting up ready with coffee, shower, dressed, etc. But, there wasn’t much time left … because he had to leave by 9:15 am to get to game by 10 am. Good Pooh bear. We’d done really good on the scale this morning, but it seemed too much for us to bare. We were at 311.0 Snuggle face was a pound heavier, but he said he went back to finish the other piece of his steak *sigh* We’re all a trying here ya know!!?? It’s tough.

Let’s not get to heavy right away thought. We’re just going to get on the radar first. We went back to spaced into garbo stuff – stars after Rich left to now … and had first gotten short bowl/cup (Rich’s new one) of the above mentioned, but then went back again, and then the last time to finish up the box. That was showing poor restraint and its given us a poor sugar rush. Hmm, let’s turn up the music. “I’ll be there” Ok, that’s better … we need to pull it together. Rich is going to be back to have lunch I think, and then he’s going out with the girl – maybe to a show – Blue man group and then probably to catch something for dinner. I think in the meantime she’s going to bring her friend back to the airport. I think Jill’s returning to New Mexico on Tuesday. I think then Rich and his younger son are going to see a fishy/boat tomorrow and then he’ll do two more games, and then he’ll be home for the evening.

We had some fluttering around time last night because he was home when we got here.

He was home just before us. We fell asleep on him though – think twice – two nights in a row. They increased one of my medicines at night and they said it would make me tired. Rich made sure we umm bedded *giggle* before much of anything else last night, but I fell asleep he said before 6:30 pm. That’s like being VERY not fair to him! He said I slept for about 2 ½ hours on the couch … and true to our own form woke up just as he was settlin into a show and some popcorn. I think the popcorn is like having micro ears/nose. *sigh*

Uh … for the record we were good to go the rest of the night hehehe.

Let’s see as to whatever else last night? We were going to see a movie, but I guess I umm messed up that all schedule. I think Rich was going to wait for me and then time got rearranged and then too late. Oh man … there was something about his brother calling while I was sleeping … I think his brother asked him why he wasn’t out and Rich said something about being home in his flannel pjs and having missed his window of opportunity … and I thought … “OH MAN! What is his brother going to think of me as a servicer of his brother’s needs!!??” Then the next thought was … hmm, how’s this going to flow down the brother --- mother --- brother pike! LOL I’m pretty sure SOMEone is keeping an eye on Rich’s sexual life … I think it’s no small coincidence they’ve called TWO Friday night’s in a row. I think they are trying to get in on the GOOD stuff! Sure that ex-wife stuff MAY be exciting, but there’s some other good stuff going on too! HMPF!

I think where we left off with the Bob stuff is that Rich and Bob were playing games as to where and when and what was going on with that there fishy show Rich will most likely be going to with his son. I’m glad he had someone to go with. I could have filled in in a pinch, but it’s not the same kind of thing as going with a male.

Though, I’m not so sure that Chris is going to be able to do fishy for 3 hours as his father is planning. I think they are using it as an opportunity to be together, but I think Rich plans to get some fishy planning pulled together toward the year.

I hope Bob calls and gives him a leg up on it, because he and some of the other guys were supposed to have gone on Friday and could be going back again over the weekend. Yeeks. I guess that’s another good reason, I should not go, even though I can be quiet and wheel myself. Let’s give another *sigh* here.

Too back Rich couldn’t go with Bob. That would have been the better solution. I worry about them two not getting along better … I think this not having a more open relationship is being tough on the two of them. Shoot I would even start clearing out kitty litter more often if it meant that Bob could drop by more often. No, really .. Hey that WASN’T a JOKE!

HMPF!

It’s going to go like that this morning, hmm? I can do that … grrr…

Ok, ok … be nice be nice

Anyway … I think we couldn’t leave work any faster than if you had attached us to a rocket! Man did we want to be gone. Candice then left about 3:15 pm. She went with Theresa … she was telling us something like well I’ve put in enough extra time … like she’s calling her own hours now. I wanted to get over there too, but there is a long standing principle that the hours I give over an above are given freely and not conditionally that I will take them back later on to my own best advantage.

I really didn’t like that at all.

There was one other thing I didn’t like … Theresa came in and was talking to Candice … I didn’t pay attention because I had my headphones on … I had known she was there for a while and it sounded like they were having a good time, but then she poked her head in our office – Theresa. I looked at the clock … it was 2:45 pm the time I thought she leaves. She had something in her hand on and she had her coat on … and she was giving conflicting information – she said something about next week … and we were telling her when she was interested in coming. And, she said she could do it right now and we said not when she was on her way out – she hadn’t come in with materials to do it or anything. She was into see Candice and maybe at best take the pressure off the situation. That she didn’t want to do anything with the client.

Then she went into this big thing about how problematic my client was and I didn’t say too much, just let her talk and after about 20 minutes of letting her go on, she’d come to her own conclusion that there wasn’t any real problem, but that she’d watch things. She had come to me before and set up something … She complained about the client not exercising, so I said come in and get me before an exercising period and I would observe. She never did so I figured everything was ok. But, don’t come to me that much later and re-present the problem after not having done your part.

I’m pretty careful now about leaving the responsibility on the DSP to make “next connections.” Like if you want this meeting – just come to my office – don’t wait for me to appear at your door. I don’t go “room-hopping.” I don’t have all day to sit around waiting for them to expand problems. I think they like to fabricate things. Like I understand from the minutes that she went on about this clients goals because they appeared on the staff minutes while I wasn’t there. That’s pretty bull-shit to tell exactly EVERY one in the center about goals she’s not working except the person she has to talk about it to. No responsibility … pretty cowardly I think. I don’t understand the lack of being direct. I know this DSP spends a lot of extra time talking to Candice. I think this was mentioned earlier this week. It tells me, don’t say anything personal to Candice that you don’t want spread to the rest of the staff.

I don’t know all of the relationships … I don’t know if I ever stopped to figure it out … I know Rosa and Imelda were together, Sue and Holly, Cathy is more independent although she probably has to listen to Stephanie because she works with her, now it is Candice and Theresa, Maria and Brandi and Margarita? Hmm, I see a little holding back on each of them, but I see also a little of the Spanish group, and Brandi being held back – more toward me and some of Candice and me, and no one ever witnesses it but I will do some Holly and me after hours on the way out. People don’t know that in general. I don’t think that Candice and Brandi get along that great and I don’t know what’s up with Maria – think she’s in her own thing, as with some of the others – some negative stuff under the surface … stuff Brandi knows, but I don’t ask about. I used to talk to Margarita. I never talk to Rosa, Imelda, Theresa, Maria, and Stephanie. I would like to talk to Cathy and do try when there are moments of opportunity – and I feel the same with Sue. I will attempt polite conversations with all given a group or one and one situation.

Hmm just took a couple moment break for the washroom and hot coffee. I made some more … feel much better than we had felt four pages ago. We’re still having problems slowing down our sense of rushing at food. We took out our plastic container of leftover steak and veggies for tonight’s dinner. We took a small bite … remembered how delicious it was and then we put it back in the fridgerator. That was a funny part of last night. We pulled up our chair to watch Rich and we were concerned because it seemed that he was having trouble catching his breath. And, he said that he was just tired and we were like you need to rest. He didn’t want to do that because there was more to be getting done, so we were like WE CAN DO IT! We had trouble though thinking through which to do between mashed potatoes and salad fixings. We figured that it would be better for us to do salad, because we understood that better and we could do it sitting down. And, then we had to go through the confusion of how we were going to get the vegetables to the counter.

Rich, of course, was instrumental in each case. We really did want to help.

We focused intently on what we were doing, but in the end even we had realized without Rich saying it that we’d cut too much vegetables. We cut Rich off before he could say anything because we saw him give our bowl that look, and we said look, here before you say anything, we recognize we cut too many vegetables, but that would be fine, because we are willing to put half of them in another bowl and save them for tomorrow. Would that be ok with you? Fortunately, he was pretty much ok with that and an upset was avoided. Pswhoo. It was tense.

BUT, the freedom of cutting our own vegetables was pretty exhilarating! We still had to go very slow, because of our fear of cutting ourselves. Not that we’ve done that too often – if ever – it’s just that one can’t be too careful … you know!??

*Sigh* Beside … I think that Rich was watching over us pretty carefully as he was doing the potatoes … he had made clear headway, because after we accepted at the table half of the portion, he said something about being the first time he’d made only and exactly only TWO portions of mashed potato mixes. I think that would have upset us before and we’d been screaming NOOOO, we need MORE! We’ve been no obvious help to one another.

This morning we were on him. He had to explain that he did indeed have that extra piece of meat and we had to say something about the drinks. We are feeling bad somewhere inside us … in that as much as we love sharing our margarita’s with him, last night we had two and that raises the bar – plus, we seem to have them every time we’re together during the week. We are telling him that it is too much. Then we remind him of the alcoholic parents. He says its not the same and that he could go with out, so then I say let’s try it out … let’s go without THIS week, but he says NO I LIKE my drink during the weekends to relax. And I say SEE THIS is WHY I THINK it’s a PROBLEM!!! I’m about ready to pull the plug on that whole thing. He’s saying that drinking Margarita’s isn’t like drinking the cognac or whatever stuff his buddies have, or what’s in the decanter at work, or that they share during his last two minutes of his favorite show out on the balcony … to that I say they are romanticizing it. And, we DO NOT need that between the two of us!!! Oh yeah … Did your Father and brother drink too??!!! TRIPLE GAJILLION HMPF!!!

I’m not going to give up drug, smoking, and eating addictions to get clobbered with an alcohol addiction! That’s gotta be understood! JUST LEGAL DRUGS --- That’s GOTTA BE THE DEAL!

Ok, that’s just something scary that’s coming up to the side. We don’t have to go there, but we got to acknowledge that it’s there. It would be too easy to sublimate now … and we know that alcohol is bad calories. No nutritional value – mind altering … we can’t need that … want to live off love felt from Rich. We have to ask him to look at us … and we’ll do whatever he needs to make ourselves more beautiful



WooHOOO!!! Ok, Babe! We’re a working on it. 311!!! No more cereal today.

Hmm, ok … smooth out. It’s 11:26 am now. We’re going to wait a little bit. We’re thinkin maybe we could have lunch with superman even though we know we’re going to have slimfast and jello. We just got ourselves some coffee. We can do this. Rich was right we should try to do some walking … this is what has helped us the most.

That would mean we’d have to go to the zoo … pretty quick after lunch. Mostly because later in the afternoon it is supposed to snow and rain. I’m pretty sure I’d have to go by myself. It might make a difference in that Sweetie could be going either to the 2 pm or the 4 pm Blue man show.

AHA! Just looked the info had been incorrect. There are shows at 4, 7 and 10 pm today and the show at 4 pm normal price is $60 though she is supposed to have student opps … The guy I talked to a minute ago said 4 pm seating is limited to single seats on the main floor or obstructed balcony views … Yeeks. Hopefully she has tickets and is that organized. I also read something about not wearing white shirts and blue paint something being splattered at the audience and ponchos being provided. Hmm, good experience. Nah … for the young and restless. I hear it’s pretty amazing, but we’re pretty strange about messes.

In the meanwhile, maybe it opens up it’s open opportunities. Most likely though the girl is going somewhere with the mother tonight … think I heard something of her escorting her to some show … If I were her mother I would like to show her off to my friends as well. That would mean she’d have to make the 4 pm show … depending on getting her friend to airport on time and making that connection and tickets with Dad. Man I hope she’s organized and didn’t stay up all night. I think their family is built for going out … they are like jet-setters.

MYBIG DEAL would be if this WASN’T the plan and I could squeek out a walk at the zoo deal with Rich before he goes out with his daughter. His son’s trip tomorrow and work is at zoo time so I can’t do that … but one way or another I should probably plan on going to the zoo ANYWAY with CAMERA AND CHAIR. Hmm, zoo is open til 5 pm?

Hmm, spaced out there a second … looking over at the zoo site … found ourselves over at a penguin expedition to one of the poles listening to the explorers to podcasts.

Whoops … back again … It’s 1:10 pm. Rich was just here and then left … he always hits me like a storm … Wow so much activity! Sometimes I spend whole periods with him just trying to figure out what’s going on. He brought up a heavy mail and I threw most of it away right away … lots of catalogues. He says that’s what I get for ordering on-line. Eh.

While he used the washroom, I cleaned up in the kitchen from the popcorn the night before. He was so happy with the clean counter … we got a perfectly good kiss in the middle of the day! WooHOOO … we’ll need to look into that further! We went over diets while he made his sandwich, but mostly we were making plans for his evening. Apparently, his daughter had to pick up her student tickets two hours before the performance if there was any left. Rich is looking at the 7pm show. His daughter completely fell short on that one, but by doing it that way – they get half off, so that’s kinda nice. I hope they don’t have to just sit in the balcony. I think we told Rich the balcony is obstructed – guard rails and all. Hehehe he didn’t know about getting paint thrown at him and ponchos … but, I guess that’s mostly the first five rows. Umm, should have told him that. *sigh*

His back-up plan is to either and or take her to the movies or the fishing show … but, he promised his son first, even though his son hasn’t committed … and I think won’t. I do agree with his last thought that Bud would be the best to take. If his mother can do without him … he’s the only one that would be genuinely interested in what happens to fishes. I liked the idea of the girl going though because she’s a little more masculine doing gym stuff so could maybe do a show like that in her father’s best interest and then it would give them something to do until 10 pm if they wanted to stay out that late. I think the mother has a show tonight – hehehe in another part of the same complex, which is really funny and we also know that Rich gets the daughter the compete night so we’re not planning on seeing him. He did leave a movie with us that we didn’t get to last night.

I don’t mind at all that he get’s this special night with the girl. It was funny though. He got into his head that he wanted to wear a particular blue shirt that was kind of a striped silky thing with green cargo pants. We said nooooo … it’s too fancy for the pants … and he refuuuuused to go look for another shirt … the only compromise is that he had started off with strung out blue jeans. Oh Man … I said you have to promise me if the girl comments on his get up … I will expect a full report back! *Giggle*

So, this puts us back to our regular struggle.

Ok, we’re back … that was a long one … It’s now 1:53 pm. Just in case we want to go forward with the plan and at least working toward that end, we took a shower and got dressed. Our jeans are still dirty from last time out on Sunday … and thinking contact with unsavory things … we opted to try out the more casual dress pants we’ve never worn that matches our other pieces. I’ve noted that the pen mark smeared so is looking worse on our shirt. I don’t know if the cleaners can fix that. I feel funny in the clothes. It’s different sensations on the body and we’re not going into that fully here. The plan would be to give us a time to recooperate this last shock and give our hair a chance to drive. Then we would try to leave in a half hour – 2:30 pm. Get to the zoo slightly before 3 pm (stalls on our part). And, that would give us 2 hours to be there. An hour and a half out and a half hour back. Hmm, should have a timer. We’ll take the phone. Hmm, still have a pedometer … attached it to pants pocket. Good good.

Hmm, my nifty neato timer is all messed up … buttons stuck something must have spilled on it. But the clock portion is still working. There it let me set the correct time. That made me feel better. I’m all registered. Rich was right … I’m going to want to see 310. That’s the bottom line figure the doctor said I have to be at when I come back to see her … so that’s the magic mark … anything under that is just security under the bridge. Ok, let’s think again.



Ok, maybe a little fuzzy, but we’re doing it. Hangin in there with you!!! We can take care of ourselves, right?! Might want to brush that hair though? I KNOW I KNOW ok, ok …

Ok, maybe it doesn’t get better … let’s move on?



What else? We’ll need two full water bottles, K? The chair will carry the weight.

And, we’ll have to experiment with the camera to see if its working or not … Rich said we could try the new batteries. We’ll see … maybe today better to focus on just being out … It’s supposed to be the warmest day of the week. Card is in the wallet … we’ll just need it for parking … zoo is free in January and February for Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday. Pretty good deal. Wanna keep visitors coming to see the animals. They might get lonely. We should check if we have any dollars. We never spend them at the zoo, but just to make sure. No safari rides I think and the last dolphin show is at 2:30 pm. We certainly won’t make that. I don’t think that we’ll be able to do wheeling sitting down like we do at Dr. Marvin’s because the ground’s to dirty. That’s probably good … get’s us to get up and walk. We should shoot for longer periods of up and walk through the corticoid.

Rich started to put it down the other day … saying you couldn’t keep using the drug every other week. He’s right, but he’s not seeing or at least feeling the difference in mobility. It’s like getting a whole new body. Not that I can walk real long … but shoot – 8 minutes!! WooHOOO!!!

Ok, shhh, we have to calm down and make sure we have everything … kind of a big deal going out …

Hmm, looking at the map … this is as far as I would like to go today … no really!!!



Not so bad??! Rich would be proud for sure. That’s going up AND down the steep hills coming in the free parking. Ok, you … you know what to do … bathroom.
Water. Phone. Bag. Coat. Keys. Out the door! Pshwoo!

posted by Ann Marie @ 1/13/2008 10:45:00 AM Comments: 1