Pre-Post V School Thoughts
Good Morning,
Just me. I’m hoping that you are all well no matter which corner of the web you now inhabit. I like to think that everyone has had a chance to revalue their space out here in the world wide thingy. And, is happy with choices made any which way cooked, be it sunny-side up, fried, over easy, or scrambled. Hmm, little eggcelent humor here!
I am going to try keeping it real light this morning. We’ve been in communication concerning the school issues. It seems as if we’re avoiding pretty good. V. would say, don’t even talk about it, just do it! This response gets me to scrunching up my nose and brow, and thinking hmm, better put V. on that to be avoided list. Maybe that almost equals the image of V. now bumping his head against the wall in frustration. We figure the next thing is that he’ll step back and say, “Your choice.” I think that scares us more.
The conversation took-up most of the time with the Good Dr. M. last night. We were having trouble with feelings though. It started with the patient before us leaving his office in tears. We thought, oh no … this can’t be a good sign. I think that played on our mind. At one point, our eyes started to water and out flashed the thought and expression, “Oh no, you are not going to make ME cry!” But, then being in a doctor’s office and all, of course, the next thoughts are directed toward, “Hmm, she doesn’t want to feel upset, let’s explore that for a moment!” Well, I don’t know if the exclamation point is in order now, but it seemed like it last night. That thought also received the wrinkled nose and brow
Then Sarah patiently, though giggly explained, “But, I WANT to live in Happy Land!” These kinds of sentiments, I think get us into more trouble than we would like. Cuz, they are always responded to with questions like, “What is that like?” “Well, there is no sadness and nothing to be ‘fraid about, and we’re never very angry for long.” Questions like, “Is that real?” Or, “Can you stay there?” Or, “Is there something you are avoiding?” Well, there you guessed it … more wrinkly noses and brows. But, usually brings on the same “feeling” of apprehension. “You’re not going to be mean to us are you?” “Is that what you are feeling?” “ACK! Too many questions, I think you are being obnoxious!” Then, we might get a slight impish smile from Dr. M, and respond to him by saying, “Shoot, but your so gosh darn cute!” “Cute, oh my Gosh … $240 an hour and we’ve dwindled you down to ‘cute’!” ACK! Am, I thinking these thoughts out loud???! Damn!
Basically, it boiled down to about that. Hmm, more eggregious humor!
He had quite a few “funny” thoughts. I’m not sure what they were, but after the third challenge we thought, hmm, he’s being a better comedian than we are! For the record, we were trying to progress our avoidance of the cog course. Add-in some pretty general thoughts here, while we look over our shoulder thinking now of friend, V., and Sr. all saying, “JUST DO IT!” No one wants to hear us saying, “But, WE CAN’T.” “You mean, you WON’T!?” “Call-it any way you want!” I think in general, we might be sabotaging ourselves, and no one wants to see it happen. That be almost a constructive thought? Naw. They’d still get me on we’re thinking, but not doing. We’re trying to put ourselves through the consequences, but the good Dr. M. is too clever for that, and we’re not willing to put our necks out too far in thinking … hmm, what did Dr. M. call it. You know where you think bad thoughts, and so then they happen? AHA! I remembered! Self-fulfilling prophecy! Not much solace, but we’re a little relieved in knowing we weren’t the only ones who do this. We’re still fighting for a better consequence. Seems one of the most important things is that we come out feeling loved and the “smart” sense is regained.
I think we came down to the point with Dr. M., so we were trying to put in place a “system” that would work. So, we talked about the difference in the multi-course and the cog course. Well, shoot, the multi-course is easy and the cog course is hard. He let me slide with that one. So, we can both acknowledge we’re looking at something here that IS hard. He challenged our thinking though when we stated, we would be smart if we got through it. He said, you are smart whether you do it or not, and you have been smart all along. Hmm, that excuse is obviously not going to work here.
Everything kept pushing toward … we are going to need getting through our latest set of defenses. All of a sudden in our eyes thought we imagine that little dog … forgot his cartoon name, he was the one that sang, “Oh my darling Clementine.” Well, he just came up to the other character, thinking a bull-dog who snickered a lot, building lickity-split seven more layers of fencing one backed-up against the last. Good thinking, my good little fella! Then he says to his implied audience, “Hmm, Do you think he’s trying to avoid me?” AHA! Huckleberry Hound? Is that him? He of course though, of course, is my teacher and assignments. They say! Hah! We are going to be due whether you continue to refuse us or not! So, take that in your pipe and smoke it!
So, then there is Dr. M. again saying something like, “How did you get the multi-papers done? This takes some heavy-duty thinking that leads us to complain … “THIS HURTS!” “What hurts?” “My head! I think you are trying to break it!” “Hmm, let’s see, how do you think we could help your head?” “BE NICE!” “What do you mean?” “Whimpering…” “You are confusing our brain!” “So, when you do the other assignment, what is first?” We pout for a second before finally responding, “Umm, I’m trying to think! Umm, maybe first thing is we would read the chapter.” “Have you done that?” “Well, yes it took us two days, but we read the current chapter.” “What would be the second thing?” “Our head is going to break!” “Another cute smile from Dr. Sir-devil.” Obviously, he is having more fun with this than we are!
Now we are leaned over at our waist, so our head is at a 45 degree angle from the couch, seems like this is gonna be a strategic game. “Well, then we would do something. First we read, oh, I know than we underline stuff in pink.” “Go on.” “Umm, after we pink-it, then we’ve gone back and put the 6-7 questions they always ask in outline form, but we convert the sentences so they are more direct and easy to understand.” “Ok, good, then what?” “Then, we start at the beginning of the chapter and note our pink lines matching up to the questions.” “That’s pretty good thinking isn’t it? We thought real good!?” Then, the last part is easy, because you just smooth out the sentences in an outline, although we never know what we mean ‘til after we said it.”
“Excuse me … this is making me feel sick! Time-out, Time-out!” Ok, ok … so whadda ‘bout those bears!?
I think I got a headache. Maybe we better take something for that. It’s quarter to five now, is it too early to take our medicine? My head is swimming! Wait for 15 min.? More whimpering … ok, when is it due … Umm, we leave for work about quarter to 7, so that would be 6:45, and now is 4:45 … so, that would be two hours early? My head is pretty confused now! It is a Friday, maybe a short one … Today is the Thanksgiving Day celebration at work. Sister is taking the whole place to a banquet hall for a turkey dinner this afternoon. Well, probably get off early. *Sigh* Ok, ok … go take the medicine. Thank-you. I’ll try real hard again then too, ok? Good girl! Ok, mark the time … it is now 5 am. Hey Lazy-V just got up!
Shh, let’s just relax for a moment, k? Can we talk to V?? Hmm, ok go ahead and try. We’ll think of this as part I.
Hmm, Part II is a post-thought here ... We have just a few moments. We had a real good talk with V. this morning. In conclusion, we are brought back to a pleasant V-thought we hold close to our hearts. To Grow is to be Anxious. I'm going to remember this sooo good that I remember to think it everytime something gets hard. I like it better than "Just do it!" Though that thought certainly has its merits. More favored has been, "Ok, let's progress this! Next, we are going to do ..." Thinking if we could learn this now, we can utilize productively the thoughts for the rest of our lives. That be pretty darn good. Ok, with that thought in mind. We're out of the shower, dressed, bag packed, and headed toward the gas station. Need to keep all tanks well-fueled!
Oh, one more thing ... Dr. M. gave us another great plan to work with. He said, that we are like reading the chapter twice, and we could do better, by outlining the questions first, then looking for the answers as we read the first time. It sorta feels like double concentration, in that we're trying to comprehend the text (all of which isn't usable), and we're trying to comprehend what the questions are asking. It seemed a little like cheating, but I think we're going to try erring in favor of Dr. M.'s method next time out. We figured he had to go through like 8-10 years of this hell and continues the need to read a lot. If he's got a "system" we're all for it.
Just happy as hell, he didn't skim through the chapter on being so gosh darn lovable even as he's mastering all our buttons! Ha! We don't have to feel stuff yet! Especially, when we're out here hiding from him! Hmm, another control issue? Shoot, now remembering what we used to tell the boys. Control yourself, or someone like me is going to step in and control the situation for you. Sorta seems now like ... Dr. M.'s couple of hours a week time, is for when we need to say, "Help! Veered off the road, emergency roadside assistance needed!" Shoot, too much. Let's not look at it as needing to be saved/controlled, Let's consider it like ... umm, we've given him permission to steer our yacht through another tight channel! Yup, yup ... works for me! Cept this time when he left, he seems to have forgotten his jacket on my steererers seat! Hmmm!
Maybe we better get back to thinking Turkey DAY!!! :)
posted by Ann Marie @ 11/18/2005 05:30:00 AM
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